One Shots

Will you wait for me

AN: Hindi ko talaga kayang bitawan, KissEd/Kissward.

"'Cos I miss you so and I need to know, will you wait for me?"

Akala ko magiging okay ako kapag umalis ako. Akala ko magiging maayos na kapag lumayo ako.

Pero bakit ganon? Bakit parang mas lumalala pa? God knows how much I wanted to tell everyone what was going on. But, I can't. I just can't.

Gusto ko mang umalis, hindi ko na magagawa pa. Akala ko kasi pwedeng maging solusyon 'yon, hindi pala.

Sa lahat nang naging desisyon ko, dito ako sobrang mali. Maling mali na umiwas ako. Ang gago diba? Sabi ko gusto ko siya. Pero eto ako, nasa piling ng iba. Habang nagpapasaya ng ibang tao, umiiyak siya.

Hindi ko naman sinasadya. Hindi ko sinasadyang masaktan siya ng sobra, kasi kahit ako nasasaktan rin. Sobra pa nga, pero sino ba ako para magreklamo? Ako naglagay sa sarili ko dito sa sitwasyon na 'to.

"Mag-enjoy kayo, mag-jowa."

Reality pulled me back. I saw Patricia, Maymay's cousin.

"Ikaw talaga." Wika ni Maymay.

Bumaba naman na kami ni Maymay. Nasa skydome kami ngayon... para suportahan siya.

Oo, susuportahan namin siya. Personal pa rin naman niya kaming inimbitahan sa kabila ng mga masasakit na salitang natanggap niya mula sa mga taga-hanga namin.

Excited na rin ako na makita siya. I've heard a lot na nag-improve na siya. Kuya Luis even told us na goodbye lola dance move na daw siya.

Pagpasok namin sa skydome sobrang lakas ng tilian. Fans saw us and immediately turned their camera's to us. But my eyes were already fixed on the stage, where Kisses was.

I think she's singing pretty boy? Yeah, pretty boy. They even invited fanboys of Kisses. Wow, Kisses really has this solid fandom.

Maymay and I sat between Kristine's friend and Kuya Luis. I sighed when I can't let myself stare too much. Why? Kasi pagmumulan nanaman ng dahilan para i-bash siya.

I saw some ships of her; DonKiss, KissNiel, KissTon/TonKiss, Kissables..... I was looking for something... and I saw it! My KissWard's / KissEd's. They were screaming something, but I cannot hear it clearly.

I sighed. This is too much. Gustong gusto ko siyang titigan kahit pa makita ng lahat, and so I did. I saw the Kisses I had admired for the longest time... her smiles, her eyes, her nose, her lips. God, she's a perfection. If only I cam be with her..

"Alam niyo ba? Kanina sobrang astig sumayaw ni Kisses!" Kuya Luis said.

"Yeah! It felt like she wasn't Kisses!" Ate Cora agreed. "Tsaka, she really improved, na akala mo professional dancer talaga."

I smiled. I'm proud. I'm proud to see her from her lola dance moves to this. Wow, I can't even...

She went down to stage and sang her song. She's so near yet so far. I wanna hold her right there, but I stopped myself. I can't make a scene now.

My sight was becoming blurry already. My tears are si ready to fall that I had to rub it. God, I felt so betrayed with my tears.

Before she could even thank us, Maymay and I had to go. May flight pa kasi kaming hahabulin kaya naman nagpaalam na kami.

One last glance, one last glance for this event.... I saw her walking from center stage to back stage. It hurts me to go like this, I can't even say a proper goodbye to her.

I was holding my phone when we entered the van. I don't know what to do. Gusto kong bumalik pero hindi naman pwede.

So, I did it. I watched her album launched sa phone ko. When I saw her, I paused it and placed it near my heart. I closed my eyes and let myself feel my heart beating.

Hindi ko na namalayan na my tears fell. I immediately wiped it. I played it again, after how many minutes she thanked everyone.

"Hmm. Sino pa ba?" It was Kisses.

"Si Edward!" Someone shouted I don't know who.

"Si... Edward." Kisses said. "Salamat... Edward."

I smiled bitterly. She can't even say my name without awkwardness. How I wish we can live at PBB house again.

My focus shifted when Maymay and Patricia started to giggle.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

"Nakakakilig kasi si Tony!" Patricia said.

"Tony who?"

"Tony Labrusca."

My forehead creased. Tony Labrusca, wait? He's one of the guest of Kisses!

I played again the live video and saw him performing. Wow, Kisses' fans were screaming for him. He got the charms hmmm?

After awhile, Kisses went out and Tony thanked her for inviting him. I just realized something, what if we never had this boundary? Will I even gonna be invited as her guest?

My eyes grew bigger when I saw Tony gave Kisses flowers... one of her favorites. Yellow roses. Wow, how did Tony know that?

I saw they talked without awkwardness. Seriously? They already have fansclub. That fast?

I sighed. Mukhang may kaagaw nanaman ako... bakit naman ganon? Araw araw nalang ba nadadagdagan? Sana naman mabawasan na sila. Napapagod na ako makipagkumpetensya.

Gusto ko na siyang makasama... kagaya nung nasa PBB house pa kami. Yung walang iniisip na fans na magagalit, yung kami lang. Yung kami lang ang nag-uusap.

Gusto kong angkinin siya pero di ko magawa. Kasi maraming magagalit, maraming masasaktan lalo.

Gusto kong ibalik yung dati... yung magkatext kami gabi gabi. Yung magkatawagan kami. Ngayon kasi, pinagbabawal na. Kasi raw baka malaman ng iba. Nakakatawang isipin na mismong sila ang hadlang sa kasiyahan ko.

Nang nasa airport na kami ay nagbrowse muna ako ng mga past messages namin.

Ako:
Sana walang magbabago, Kisses.

My Kisses:
Wala naman siguro. Let's pray for that. 🙏

Yes, her name on my phonebook is still My Kisses. Such a stalker.

Ako:
I missed you. :( Did not saw you sa set today.

My Kisses:
Focus, Barber. We'll see each other tomo.

I smiled weakly. She's really fond calling me Barber. Alam niya kasing takot ako kapag ganon na siya.

I sighed, remembering these little things makes me wanna cry. Sobrang sakit kasi sa puso.

Tinawag na yung flight namin kaya naman tumayo na kami ni Maymay. But before pa ako makasakay ay I sent message to Kisses.

Ako:
Congratulations, my Kisses! You made it, and I am so so so proud of you!

Ako:
Will you wait for me?

I hid my phone and went to the plane. I don't know why I sent that, but... maybe because I needed some assurance from her... because when I come back I'll do whatever it takes to win her. So, wait for me, my Kisses.