One Shots

Say you'll never go

"How can I carry on my way? The memories when all that is left is the pain in my history. Why should I live my life today?"

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I looked around; I'm scared as hell to cross paths with you again. But here I am, wanting to cross paths with you rn. Too, magulo.

I don't know but everytime I hear news about you makes my whole self, even my soul, a little bit giddy. It makes my mood go for 1000000x. But, whenever I hear news about you and someone makes my heart tear into pieces.

They thought I was the one who let you go. They thought I was the one who left you behind. They thought I wasn't enough to fight for you.

I was so damn ready to raise war; to raise hell, just to be with you. But, why? Why did you chose to leave me? Why did you turned your back on me leaving me like a lost kid in the middle of a chaos?

I was so ready to tell everyone about you, about us. But why did you chose someone's happiness over our happiness? I wanna tell you how much I was hurt; only to find out that you chose to break me to make someone whole. How can you be so mean to me yet you are so good to others?

It's been months since the last time we talked together. You were ignoring me; my calls, my text, my dm's... even in personaln you can't say hi or smile at me.

Do you know how hurt I was the first time you ignored me? I was so close to shout at everyone because I was having a bad day.

I was so close on giving you up, but there's only one reason why I can't. This, this is so unfair!

All the memories I've got with you, it's in my heart and my mind. I can't even close my eyes without imagining you, smiling at me. God, I'm losing my mind. And it's not healthy.

I sighed. Why do I have to face this kind of situations? Am I that bad? All I want was to be with her, to be her someone. To be there for her whenever she needed help, whenever she feel like she's losing the battle. 'cos, I can fight this battle for her. There's no guarantee that I'll win, but as long as she's with me, then we'll fight together.

I was leaning on the wall when I saw her walking with him. How lucky this guy. I wish I was that guy.

She looked at me and tried to avoid my stares but no, you can't avoid me forever Kisses.

I maybe with Maymay today, I swear, that we'll end up together. I'll give you the space you wanted, even if it'll took for years, I'm assuring you that you'll end up with me. You'll end up with Edward John Barber. You'll be, Mrs. Kirsten Danielle Delavin-Barber.