Hunter POV
Pinarke ko ang kotse ko sa tabing dagat na nadaanan namin ni Hannah. Hindi na siya umimik simula kanina at palagay ko ay hindi ako matatahimik hangga't di ko napapaluwag ang damdamin ng babae. Kung bakit gusto ko na ihinga niya sa akin ang nagpapasikip ng dibdib niya ay hindi ko din maintindihan. I don't like dramas. And I hate those girly shits but with Hannah, I want to know everything that goes on with her.
Bumaba ako at naupo sa buhanginan. Sa totoo lang ay hindi ko na alam kung nasaan kami. Palagay ko ay namali ako sa pagliko pero hindi man lang iyon pansin ng babae. Animo'y lutang nanaman ang isip niya gaya ng mga unang beses ko siyang nakasama.
Sumunod din ang babae at bumaba ng kotse marahil nagtaka sa ikinikilos ko. Naupo din siya sa tabi ko at tumanaw sa madilim na karagatan. Tanging ang ilaw lang ng headlights ng kotse ang nagiging liwanag namin.
"I'm sorry if I used you Hunter, sorry for the kiss. I guess, I had too much to drink." Anas ng babae na hindi naman ako tinitignan. Nakatanaw lang din siya sa malawak at madilim na karagatan.
"Well that's a first." Nagtatawang aniko sa kanya.
"First?" Kunot noong tanong niya na tumingin na sa akin.
"First time na may nagsorry na babae na hinalikan ko. Lahat kasi sila hindi feeling apologetic, it's more like... overjoy." Mayabang kong sagot na bahagyang nagpatawa sa babae. Alam ko hindi niya napigilan ang matawa sa sinabi ko kahit halata ang lungkot sa mukha niya. I wanted that. I wanted to make her laugh at my jokes just to divert her attention.
"Sobrang hangin mo talaga!" Anito na napapailing, nginitian ko lang siya at muling natahimik kami.
"You should let it all out Hannah. Masamang kinikimkim mo 'yan. We are alone here and I'm a... a f-friend. You can tell it to me if you want. I can lend you my ears then maybe my shoulders too." Mahinahon kong ani sa dalaga. Hindi siya umimik pero hinayaan ko lang na balutin kami muli ng katahimikan. Hindi ko naman siya mapipilit kung ayaw niyang ikwento. Atleast I know I tried. Mayamaya pa ay lumingon muli sa akin si Hannah.
"Marcus was Dina's ex. I know I was wrong to date him but we got off so well, we fell inlove and we couldn't let it pass. Our relationship stretched to three years. Biruin mo tatlong taon... tatlong taon kami na masaya. But my sister, she said she wants Marcus back. Para bang isang laruan na pinahiram niya sa akin at gusto niyang ibalik ko! Ginugulo niya kami and we fought because of her." Kwento niya. Napabuntong hininga siya bago nagpatuloy.
"Marcus and I built our future together. We even started our dream house in tagaytay. Sabi niya he wants three kids and I said I want a dozen of them." Pagak na tumawa si Hannah. May tumulong luha na agad din niyang pinalis ng kamay niya.
"On our third year anniverary he proposed to me, It was the happiest day of my life and of course I said yes." She said as she smiled a sad smile. I stayed quiet as I listen to her.
"I caught Marcus and Dina dating. I confronted them, Marcus said he only wanted Dina to stop pestering us kaya siya nakipagkita. I made him choose and right there and then, he choose me. Ako ang pinili niya Hunter. Ako!" Muling nagpahid ng luha si Hannah. Doon ko inabot ang kurbata ko sa kanya. Napatitig siya doon.
"Wala akong panyo eh. Ito na lang." suhestiyon ko sabay abot muli sa kanya ng kurbata ko. Natatawang kinuha naman iyon ni Hannah at pinahid sa pisngi niya.
"Then what happened?" I encourage her to go on.
"We left together that day. But we still fought in the car, I was so angry that he met Dina without telling me." Ani Hannah na bahagyang nanginginig na ang boses habang nagkukwento.
"It was my fault Hunter, I was driving too fast and its raining so hard and I was so furious with Marcus. Marcus was telling me to slow down but I didn't listen. And then it was too late. At one curve, I didnt see the truck coming and it hit us. We were lucky enough that the truck quickly stopped or else the impact will be greater and we will be dead by now. It was all my fault. And now I am reaping the fruit of my evilness." She brushed off the tears that ran down her cheeks with my tie. I felt pity for her.
"I broke my arm and my left leg but Marcus.... He was in a coma, Hunter. He was in a coma for and it was all my fault! Seeing him lying there hurt me more than my injury, it broke me into millions of pieces. And I was so guilty because of what I did, if only I listened to him and slow down...." I can see the raw emotion in her eyes. Her regret, her anger directed at herself, her misery and the guilt that swallowed her whole.
"I prayed everyday for him to wake up. The hospital became my home and I tried to talk to him everyday, asking him to wake up because we have a marriage to arrange. I told him I already chose the gown, he needs to wake up..." She brushed off the tears that kept falling in her eyes again.
"Maybe it was karma.... because when he finally woke up he didn't remember me! He had selective amnesia and he didn't remember the three years we've been together and all he remembered is that Dina is still his girlfriend. And I'm only a sister of his girlfriend! It felt like shìt Hunter! It hurts so damn bad that all I wanted was to die. He has forgotten me! Marcus has forgotten our love. Ito na ba ang paniningil ng karma sa akin?" Puno ng lungkot na kwento sa akin ni Hannah.
Hannah has been through a lot. Agad ko siyang hinatak at niyakap. At sa bisig ko ay humagulgol siya ng iyak. I let her cry it all out.
"That is not karma Hannah. Pagsubok lang ito at malalagpasan mo din. Maybe God has other plans for you. Just stay strong and if you need any kind of help, I'll always be here for you." Mahinahon na alo ko sa tenga ng dalaga. Sandali itong natawa ng pagak pero maya-maya pa ay mas lalong lumakas ang hagulgol niya. Hindi ko din alam anong pwede kong sabihin para mapagaan ang nararamdaman ng dalaga. May kirot din na dulot ang sinabi niya para sa akin at 'yun ang hindi ko din maipaliwanag. Parang nasasaktan ako dahil nasasaktan siya.
I hold her tightly until she calms down. I didn't know how long we were in that position but it didn't matter to me. All that matters to me now is the woman that is in my arms, hurting.
She is all that matters to me now. And I don't want her to cry like this ever again. All I wanted is for her to smile and forget everything. I wanted to help but I just don't know how.
"Hunter, I want to stop this pain even for a short time." Anito na ikinahigpit ng yakap ko sa kanya. Pero nagulat ako ng biglang tumingala si Hannah at hatakin niya ang batok ko dahilan para lumapat ang labi ko sa labi niya. She is kissing me. Torrid. Ang malambot na labi ni Hannah na gumagalaw at kumakagat sa labi ko ay sapat na para mapatid ang kakaunting pagtitimpi na mayroon ako. I kiss her back with so much hunger I suppress for such a long time.
Damn! I know this is wrong but I can't help but respond to her sweet kisses.
I lift her up and put her at my lap. I let her sit astride me as we kissed endlessly at that moonless night on a sandy beach with the headlights of our car our only light.
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Heartless Hannah (Completed)
RomanceI am not easily scared of anything or anyone. Hell! I'm a Davidson for christsakes! I didn't get the name 'Hunter Badass' for nothing! I've been in and out of jail and been to too many fist fights in my days...but when she looks at me with that dead...
