Why Do You Love Me? E.D~ G.D

Chapter 18 •Stay•

"You can't be serious. You're actually leaving?" Grayson ask, removing clothes as I pack more.

"Yes." I chuckle. "I can't be under the same roof as them." I breathe out.

"But why?" He whines, continuing to unpack my clothing. I bite my lip to stop myself from snapping at him.

"Doesn't feel like home anymore. WILL YOU STOP THAT?!" I shout, being fed up. He stops before laughing at me.

"Alright fine." He says backing away. "Thank you." I smile. I turn around grabbing more clothes, squating down to my lower drawer. When I stand again, I feel a presence right behind me. Arms wrap around my stomach, making the butterflies flutter around in my stomach. "Grayson." I sigh turning around in his arms. My head seems to take liking to his chest as I rest it there.

"I need to pack." I say, finding an escape route. I repack the clothes he unpacked. He can be irritating sometimes, but I love him- WAIT WHAT!

"But what about me." He mumbles making me freeze. "What?" I ask tiredly as I turn to face him.

"Why not stay for me?" He asks.

"Why would I do that?" I laugh. It hurts to be a bitch to him, but I need to exclude myself from their lives.

He shakes his head in denial. "I know what you're doing. It's not working." He says.

"I, have no idea what you're talking about." I mumble zipping up my bags. I walk out the door, ignoring his calls for me.

"Kat!" Grayson shouts. My body turns in his direction. "What."

"You're actually going to leave." He says, tears welling up in his eyes.

"It'll be like I was never here." I smile. This is killing me.

"So you're just going to walk out and ignore this?" He says.

"Ignore what?" I ask playing dumb, walking into the hallway. His voice stops me from turning a corner.

"Don't ignore what is happening between us." He says loudly.

"You don't get it." I say, spinning around to see him. "This pain, it hurts me. It follows me everywhere.  It hurts knowing I can never be happy. There's always something that ruins it." I say, letting my tears fall.

"Then let me help take that pain away Katherine, even if we're only going to be friends." He says slowly walking over to me.

"I can't." I shake my head backing away. "I want to grayson, believe me I do, but this pain is unbearable." I sob.

"Then let me help." He pleads.

I smile sadly before speaking. "I'm not going to risk it." Grabbing my bag, I begin walking away. Until his voice stops me.

"Ignore us then. Ignore what we have. Ignore all of this. Run away from your problems Katherine. Run away from me." He yells.

The pain that follows me everywhere is yelling at me to keep walking, for me to be far away from everyone. Distance myself. But how am I supposed to try get better when I keep listening to it? Grayson makes me happy, he knows how to brighten up my day whenever I'm down. Whenever Ethan & I would argue, he was there to cheer me up. Grayson & I have had this connection growing up.

So many thoughts are flooding my head. I don't think I'll be able to face those two, I'm weak. I know I'll break...

But he'll be there to help me.

I slowly turn around before walking to him. Confusion, yet hope is written on his face. I bring his face down to mine and crash my lips against his.