Challenge Yourself
By Fox-Trot-9
33: Fuck the Holidays
(Free Verse)
Fuck the holidays!
While everybody else is having fun,
Enjoying the company of family and friends,
Enjoying home movies and video games,
Enjoying the Christmas shopping for gifts,
Enjoying the season of hope and charity,
Enjoying the good dinners with family,
I'm here stewing in the aftermath of another fight,
Another argument, another crisis, another shit storm,
With another reason to overturn the dinner table,
Another reason to burn the Christmas tree,
Another reason to glare at Saint Nick,
Another reason to throw away the gifts,
Another reason to flip off New Years,
Another reason to be done with school,
Another reason to wade through the shit storm,
Another reason to envy everyone,
Another reason to punch the wall,
Another reason to curse the day I was born,
Another reason to hate my life,
Another reason to wish I was dead!
Tomorrow I may find the light,
Tomorrow I may take back my words,
Tomorrow I may repent for the vitriol of my feelings,
Tomorrow I may stand up straighter,
Tomorrow I may pick up my heels as I walk,
Tomorrow I may try to gain a better perspective,
Tomorrow I may try my best to be thankful for something,
But now I just wanna enter the darkness,
Now I just wanna swear and curse,
Now I just wanna blaze out my fury and hate,
Now I just wanna curl up and die,
Now I just wanna walk my own plank,
Now I just wanna punch the wall,
Now I just wanna scream out my voice,
Now I just wanna be a fucking human being!
So fuck the holidays!
Fuck Christmas dinners!
Fuck Christmas trees!
Fuck Santa Claus!
Fuck Christmas gifts!
Fuck New Years!
Fuck school!
Fuck my family!
Fuck my birthday!
Fuck my life!
(To be continued...)
A/N: I don't know if other people have to go through family arguments every year, but of all the months in the year December seems to be the worst for me... I'm surprised they're not divorced yet, and I wish I can be a total asshole and not give a fuck, but I always give a fuck, and it fucking hurts... ( >_< )
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