Challenge Yourself
By Fox-Trot-9
25: Parentally Bullied
(Sonnets)
1
A thousand worries keep me from the fold
Of gentle sleep. I know that come the day
The crush of other people's lives will prey
Upon what little time that I can hold
Within my hands. I have to fit the mold
Of other people's expectations on me;
Their double standards always try to con me
Into believing everything I'm told.
How can I stand up for myself when they
Expect me to stay underneath their thumbs?
How can I live up to the things they say
When I can't speak my mind when it becomes
Apparent that they're getting in my way?
How can I grow when I can only eat their crumbs?
2
A weighty silence lingers on my head
As I brood on and on about each worry;
It seems that this anxiety's my story,
Forever keeping me up in my bed
And filling up my dreams with things I dread,
Knowing that every day's a purgatory
Of other people stealing all my glory,
While I am left without a single shred
Of self-esteem intact. What am I worth
If nothing that I do surmounts this dearth?
I'm nothing but a spineless piece of shit,
Doomed to be crushed since my pitiful birth,
Browbeaten to become a hypocrite,
Forever bullyragged, forced to submit!
3
Is it because I'm weak? Is it because
The very people who should raise me up
Constantly tear me down? I'm not a grownup
Within their eyes; I'm just a wasted cause,
A waste of space deserving no applause.
I'm just a lump of flesh born to be drowned
Beneath their words of vitriol and ground
Beneath their feet, whose death won't give them pause.
And so that's why I always run away
Whenever I get half the chance to do so;
I'm better off to walk my lonely way,
Free to grow up as other ere me grew so:
But do not think that I am so forlorn;
Out of these ashes, I am now reborn!
(To be continued...)
A/N: These are thoughts I'm sure every kid has when having to deal with overbearing and controlling parents... I know I sure did when I was younger...
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