"Really huh?" I pulled her closer kaya halos magkadikit na yung ilong namin "Bastedin si Marci? I bet you can't"
"At bakit naman?"
"Cause I can see that you like him. You even said na sasagutin mo na siya"
"Pero hindi ko siya sinagot diba?"
I look away and did not answer. Ano ba tong pinaguusapan namin? Inaasar ko lang naman siya kanina. Bakit parang bigla kaming naging seryoso?
She touch my cheeks and made me look at her again. I gulp to ease myself, but I just can't! ugh how am I supposed to? If this girl is on top of me and our face is half an inch away.
"Bakit Bea?" She ask but I don't know what to say. Anong bakit? Anong tinatanong niya?
"Bakit ganito to?"Bigla niyang tinuro yung dibdib ko, kung nasan yung puso ko. "Bakit ang bilis? Bakit ang lakas?"
I close my eyes at hindi sumagot. Ano ba dapat kong isagot? Na kaya ganon yun kasi nandito siya? Kasi yakap ko siya at magkalapit kami? Kasi sa tuwing nakikita ko siya, normal nalang na bumibilis at lumalakas yang tibok ng puso ko? Pano ko ba dapat sagutin yung tanong niya.
Dumilat ako at nakita kong nakatingin lang siya sakin, kaya ganon nalang rin ang ginawa ko. Kung hindi ko masabi Jho sana naman nararamdaman mo, kahit konti sana nararamdaman mo.
"Bea" halos pabulong niya ng sabi. She bit her lower lip kaya napatingin ako dun. Suddenly I felt the urge to kiss her .. My God Jhoana, why are you doing this to me?
"What is it Jho?" I said still looking at her lips "What do you wanna say?"
I don't know what's with me but I wanna know what she's thinking.
"W-wala"
Tumingin ako sa mata niya at hindi ko mabasa kung anong iniisip niya.
Is that sadness I'm seeing in her eyes? Hesitations? Confusion? I don't know, but I am pretty sure its not a positive look.
Umalis siya sa pagkakadagan sakin at umupo sa kama. Ngumiti siya pero halata namang pilit.
"Ah--haha ano.. ahm CR lang ako beh ha" she was about to stand up when I grab her wrist and made her sit again "B-bakit beh?"
Hindi ko alam kung bakit ko siya pinigilan. Ewan ko, ayoko lang siya umalis, alam ko namang hindi talaga siya gagamit ng restroom. Excuse niya lang yun dahil naging awkward yung sitwasyon namin. Pero bakit nga ba naging ganon? Well sakin magiging awkward talaga, kasi alam ko sa sarili ko, mahal ko siya. Pero bakit pati siya nailang? May hindi ba ko alam? May dapat ba ko malaman?
"Jho" I called her almost a whisper. My mouth just loves saying her name. So I say it again, this time while looking at her eyes "Jhoana"
I move closer until my knees met hers. I held her hands and felt that she squeeze it. Is she nervous? Because I am.
"B-Bea" do we love saying each others name? We've been calling each other but won't really say anything and just end up staring at our eyes.
Just like this one. I was looking at her eyes, but not until she bit her lip. Again! O my God what am I doing?! Why am I moving closer?! And why aren't she pulling away?! She should push me! cause if not, I think I won't be able to stop myself and kiss her right now.
Closer ..
The heck Bea! She closed her eyes! Why did she-- does it mean she's okay with it?? ugh do something De Leon! Stop arguing with yourself!
