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LILY

One day later

As I lay in the hospital bed, there is one thought running through my head:

What is happening to me?

First I can't stand James, then I love him, then I sort of hated him, and now I have a stupid eating disorder. What is happening to me?

Ugh, this is clouding my head. All the thoughts that fun through my mind. They block out the rest of the world.

These days I don't have enough strength to push myself upright or out of bed. I can barely move my arms. I can only talk a few sentences at a time. My heart feels like it beats slowly, my lungs taking shallow breaths.

I feel like I'm only partly living.

Scarlett stays by my side, bringing me water, which I can drink and keeping me company.

But still, there is only one thought running through my head:

What is happening to me?

I'm sorry!!! I have writers block for whatever reason. This chapter is for EllieEmmerling because she pressured me to write it. Just kidding! I wrote this because I think you want to. K bye!!!