Forever

I never noticed before

I sit at my vanity and brush my hair downwards, I didn't realize how long my hair had gotten, it's now brushing against my shoulder and my bangs block one of my eyes. I looked at the little guy who laid snug on my pillow curled while holding a jellybean. He was actually very cute, so small and he reminds me of my goldfish sparkles that Velvet purposefully flushed down the toilet.

I smiled at how comfortable he looked and my heart clenched as he curled more into the jellybean, his unsaturated grape purple nose twitching, almost like a puppy.

I stood up and decided that I could change into my pajamas especially since Velvet wouldn't like to see my face for a while and I'm not eager to step out into a minefield.

I opened my closet and grabbed my white and green striped spaghetti strap camisole with matching shorts, both had a white bow in the front and had lace around the edges and I smiled at the memory of receiving these pajamas, a fan had originally sent them to Velvet. But she was outraged about how dare they send her such a 'unstylish' set. I was quick to grab them and make them my own.

I put on the matching sheer Long obsidian Robe with Fur at the edges onto my person after I slipped into the silk pajama set and I felt comfortable. I haven't felt this cozy since our parents decided to get velvet a car for her birthday and left me alone in my bedroom. I remember sipping hit cocoa while drawing me and Velvet's outfits on that day.

But now looking back on it, especially since Velvet never got her drivers license like I did but she had a car. So not only was I a stepping stone, I was also a doormat and chauffeur. I put my head in my hands and I walked around my room,

"♪ Sweet dreams are made of this~ ♪" I twirled as I sung and looked towards the many pictures of me and my sister, noticing how I was either behind her or below her,

"♪ I'm going to live forever- I'm going to learn how to fly~ ♪" I dragged the last note out and I couldn't stop my tears from blurring my vision again, I felt so stupid. I couldn't believe I let myself fall this far, I was too terrified of my own sister and too afraid to go back to my uncle and aunt's house especially since they wouldn't take to kindly to their nephew making his reappearance. My fingernails that were painted a sheer, light pink-beige that glimmered with orange-red glitter were dancing across the golden frame of a photo of me and Vel,

We had to be 6 in this picture, I was braiding Velvet's hair putting daffodils in it as we smiled next to our mom's garden, the tallest tower of mount Rageous in the far background.

"♪ I'm going to make it to heaven, light up the sky like a flame. ♪" I put my back to the wall and slid downwards, I was going to lose my sister regardless, her narcissism was greedily swallowing her whole and she was going to get burned by the flames of her own passion.

I wanted to be far away from her when that happens, I don't want to burn with her.

"I didn't know you sang so beautifully." A voice broke me out of my own mind and I looked towards my pillow and saw the blue and pink troll with admiration in his eyes.

"Oh please my voice is terrible compared to Vel's" I put my chin on my knees, and kept looking at him, he's trying to figure out what to say without probably hurting my feelings about Velvet.

"What are you serious?! But how? I mean Velvet drained me with her perfume bottle but...." I can practically see the gears turn in his head, I never used him, except when Velvet forcibly sprayed the troll essence in my mouth without my consent.

"You can sing without me, why are you pretending to not be able to?" I let the tears anew not caring if he thought I was a crybaby, I scraped my blunt nails against my neck remembering how when I tried to practice one day without her and she had heard how well I sung, she strangled me.

I can still feel the pressure of her hands around my neck, her screams of envy and jealousy echoed in my eardrums. Our father had to rip her off of me and I was left alone.

By everyone especially my parents. They rather dote on their daughter which I don't blame them for, Velvet knows what she wants and steals it for herself. My sister certainly knows how to command an audience with a sugary sweet fake smile on her face.

"Look I don't want to talk about it-"

"Well we can talk about other things, what's your favorite color?" His question completely threw me off gaurd and I couldn't resist at least trying to get to know my new guest.

"Cyan and mint green, you?" I saw him smile and my heart fluttered at how soft it was towards me of all people.

"I like black, indigo and magenta." I snorted and he tilted his head sideways and smirked at my snort.

"I'm sorry but those are literally the colors of your earring, skin and hair, narcissistic much?" I chuckled at how his eyes widened and a fierce inky flush consumed his face. He quickly got himself together and snarked back,

"Oh no I'm turning into Velvet!" He pretended to faint as he chuckled and I giggled. He was really adorable with his sassy attitude towards my sister. I like being able to safely say something against my sister, especially with someone who dislikes her and is able to talk me back into the reality that she doesn't love me or even like me and I was just a pawn on her chessboard.

"Oh dear, how are we going to fix that?" I stood and sat on the comforter and scooped him up with both hands and kept him there.

"I have no idea, maybe I should embrace it and wear ugly hot pink lipstick with an obnoxious purple crown." He put his hands together and pressed them against his cheek, fluttering false eyelashes as he talked with a baby voice at the end.

I snorted, I did warn her that none of those colors went together but she was determined to have a unique look. It's 90's she said, no one would look like us.

It was silly but I always went with what she wanted, because maybe just maybe she'd love me as her brother. But none of that happened, she only got colder towards me, hiding behind a fake smile in public and pretending to like me when it came to concerts, interviews and meet and greets with fans.

"Veneer, I know this is kinda random but you're really an amazing person and I just wish you had more guts to tell Velvet to screw off." He held my thumb in his grasp and looked at me with his large sympathetic eyes and I couldn't agree with him more on one of those points,

I wish I did have more confidence to break myself away from my sister but that would take a while. But I'm not a good person, I created the monster that haunts Mount Rageous disguised as a pop star.

"I want to but I don't- I don't want to be hurt again, I'm so tired of being this doormat, this punching bag whose only purpose is to be an accessory, but I don't want to know what Velvet will do to me if I ran away." I looked at him and his face twisted with sympathy and understanding towards my situation with his magenta eyes glistening over with tears.

He lifted his arms and I wanted to be selfish, I put my scooped hand to my face and let the small troll hug me.

I was too greedy for this but as he sniffled for me while he burrowed into my cheek, I gave a watery smile.

Grateful for his kindness.