Broken || WooSanSang

Thirty

♡Yeosang♡

This is not how I wanted the day to go. I wanted to be able to quickly record our song and then go home so I could cuddle with San and Wooyoung. However things changed.

I don't know what came over me, but earlier in the alleyway I felt like I could trust Kai again. I felt like he was being genuine when he was saying sorry. Then he mentioned my birthmark and I don't know why but something came over me after he mentioned it.

After that I wanted to be around him more and I don't even know why. I was laying with him on the couch comfortably. I barely even noticed how worried everyone was. That's why when I asked to go to Kais house it surprised me how mad everyone was.

I couldn't take it so I dragged Kai and Jongho out of the studio and home. However when we were on the walk there, I couldn't help but think of San and Wooyoung. All I could see when I thought of them was the worried face they both held when Kai shocked me. 

Wait, that was today. One person can't change that much in only a few hours. What was I thinking, coming home with him! 

"Yeosang this is the house." Jongho stopped me in my thoughts and smiled at me grabbing my hand, "Come on."

Jongho then led me into the house and I felt a wave of memories come over me. This house looked just like the old one. The one I spent a year in without any escape. At this memory I turned around ready to leave, but I was met with Kai smiling.

"Where are you going?" Kai smiled down at my worried face then looked over at Jongho who was behind me, "Let's watch a movie. In my room."

"Good idea let's go."

Jongho ran up to Kais room with us behind. As we entered the room Kai grabbed my arm and told Jongho we would be right back, he then dragged me into a walk-in closet. Once we were inside he threw a hoodie and sweats at me.

"Get changed so you are comfortable." He then turned his back to me as I got changed. This was also something new. He usually wanted me to strip for him and then he would shame my body. Maybe he has changed minus the shock collar part. 

"Done."

Kai turned around and smiled at me. "Is it comfortable? Do you want to wear something else?"

I couldn't help but stare at him confused. Why is he so nice?

"No, I'm good."

"Good. Let's join Jongho again."

Kai then pulled away from me and walked back to the bedroom. I followed him like a confused puppy. Usually he would take advantage of me when we were alone, so why didn't he. Why didn't he at least try to kiss me?

Now he is hugging and cuddling with Jongho. Why him and why not me? Wait, why am I even mad? This is a good thing that he has moved on and it is a good thing he isn't hurting me anymore.

But even so I still want someone to cuddle and hug me. Watching movies without that feeling of a person near me makes me sad. Maybe Jongho wouldn't mind if I steal Kai for a cuddle.

I slightly tug on Kais shirt and when he looks at me I give him puppy eyes and motion to how he is holding Jongho.

He quickly understands what I am trying to say and he lets go of Jongho to come to me. He gets all relaxed up against the back of the bed before pulling me onto him and wrapping his hands around me. This is just how San and Wooyoung hold me. I sort of miss them right now. I want them to join us.

We stayed like this for a bit longer before Kai paused the movie and asked Jongho to the hallway. I was confused by this at first, but then he returned to the room alone and sat down on the bed next to me.