I hate it here
I hate the idea of getting high
I hate the fact that all my friends do.
I find it hard to explain all the reasons why
I find it difficult for anyone to take me seriously
Because all they ever hear is my emotion, not my logic.
And even then
A true friend would stop a habit
They'd stop something knowing it emotionally damaged their friend,
But I guess that logic goes for everything
Everything in the world,
Accept for what gets them high.
I'm terrified out of my mind,
But it's "all good fun" while giving me a high-five,
Unable to stick to a healthy schedule
Because young dependence on the fly.
I hate it here.
I hate the way my brain thinks,
I wish it could convert to their way of thinking,
And believe that getting high was fun and alive
Instead of wishing I could die
Just to get away from their high.I hate it here.
I feel like a dictator,
Despite my words never coming clean,
I feel like a dictator,
Despite never sending words of mean,
I feel like a dictator,
When it's only my brain, not my mouth
I feel like a dictator,
When all around me seems to go south.I hate it here.
And they only look at the trauma.
Not the actual dangers for themselves
But the trauma of me
To scapegoat my uncomfortability.I hate it here.
I wish I didn't have to exist in choice.
I wish I had the courage to use my voice
Without being scared I'll lose them.
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