Red Teasing The Dark 1 ✔

EPILOGUE

Red Teasing The Dark 
EPILOGUE

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Napakunot-noo siya ng napansin niyang nakatitig pa rin ako sa kanya. Gusto ko sanang sabihin na magulo iyong buhok niya ngunit ngumisi na lamang ako ng palihim.

 Sa halip ay humakbang ako at hinalikan ang likod ng kaniyang kamay. Nasilayan ko kung paano gumuhit ang pagkagulat sa kaniyang mukha. Bahagya niya pang binawi ang kamay niya mula sa pagkakahawak ko.

"Nakita kitang muli," she blurted out when I got her attention from behind. Ako na ang lagi mong makikita, baby. Gusto kong sabihin pero paniguradong ikakabigla niya. I don't want to trigger her memory loss. 

"Come with me," I commanded. Hindi ko naman siya pwedeng iwan at lalong hindi pwedeng mapalayo siya sa akin. Gusto ko malapit siya palagi sa akin. When she was stubborn so I just scared her that I would kiss her if she will be not go. Sinigawan muna ako bago pumayag. 

"This would be your first kiss," probably not it wasn't her first kiss. I just claimed her lips back then. It tastes...sweet. 

Naaaliw akong makita siyang walang kamuwang-muwang pero mas gugustuhin ko naman na bumalik na ang ala-ala niya. Para naman makahalik na ako sa mga labi niya. Matinding pagpipigil talaga. She's been torturing me. Fuck that, memory loss!

I was a fucking jealous brat when Xanthus gave her his shirt. Tongue ina, talaga ng lunatic na 'yon. Sabi ko ng ako na tapos pagdating ko roon nilahad niya na kay Blair iyong shirt niya! He's been trying to annoy me.

Afterward, I watched them, how he comforts and wipes Blair's tears. There's nothing I can do about it but to balled my fist in jealousy. I want to hit Xanthus' face so hard but he is my best buddy of all time. 

Kahit alam kong hindi niya naman makukuha si Blair sa akin at hindi niya mahahalikan. Dahil ako na nauna kay Blair. Pero tongue ina, nakakaselos din pala. My ego hurts so badly, that I felt regret. I feel ashamed of myself. Mas makupad na yata ako kaysa sa pagong. 

"Red—" Mama called her at biglang nagbago ang timpla ng kaniyang mukha. Napahawak siya sa kaniyang ulo. I was panicking and poured some water into my glass. She stared at me before accepting the glass of water. 

 That's a cue para maging vigilant ako palagi pagdating sa kaniya. Na dapat hindi ako padalos-dalos sa mga ikinikilos ko. I would rather be gentle towards her as always. I need to distance myself for a while just to make her feel better. 

If I will force her...maaaring lumayo siya sa akin. I can't lose her once again. This must be cliché but I will do everything for her even if it is too risky to do. Para sa kaniya, para kay Blair. 

Pain in her eyes. She looks pale. She was trembling in cold with a towel wrapped around her body. Her hair was entirely dumped possibly because of the rain.  

 I don't know what to do with her at that time.  I am such a bastard just letting her hear that! Fuck me! I wanna hug her and convince her that what she heard from Cassidy was inaccurate. Hindi totoo na gusto ko si Cassidy. Walang totoo sa mga narinig niya. 

Akma na sana akong tatayo ng nawala na siya sa may siwang ng pinto. I rushed to the door. She was on the ground unconscious. I was worried about her, so fucking worried! I hate myself for doing those things to her.

 I am so sick and fucking bullshit. Nagselos na naman ako ng malaman kong kasama niya na naman si Xanthus. Wala naman akong magagawa dahil mas komportable siya kay Xanthus kaysa sa akin.