2nd November 2014
“In your honest opinion do you think it’d be better for us to stay together or for us to break up?” that’s what you sent me. I stare at that message with tears falling down my face.
Whimpering slightly, I don’t reply. What do I say to that? I’ve never wanted us to end, I thought you loved me? What did I do wrong? Don’t answer that, don’t ever answer that. I know what I did wrong and I don’t deserve you.
I broke your heart and ripped mine and yours out. What do I do? That question echoes around in my head. My head hurts. Why? I can’t think. Why? Why us? Why me? I’m sorry. You’ll never forgive me so no point asking for it.
I should give you the satisfaction and kill myself. I clearly don’t deserve to live. Die…
I find myself crying a lot at night now. No one sees thankfully. I woke up this morning in tears too. I didn’t think I had any tears left but clearly I do. I cry so much now and you never see, you’ll never see.
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Dark in Me
Non-FictionBook one in the 'Dark' series. **** This is a diary where I write all my thoughts and occurrences from September 2014 to January 2016. IT IS 100% TRUE! It's a huge trigger to anyone going through cutting and tough times. It's just my story for anyon...
