It's been a while.
I have been happy, like actually happy for a while now but the other night it all hit me again. It seems that it was probably just a phase...
I don't know what I haven't said anymore. I'm crushing on my best friend and he knows. I pray to god that he falls for me too because he is really amazing and quite special to me so I would love it if he did. However, in saying that, I struggle to feel things and I don't like feelings because previously it has ended badly and I don't want that again. I guess we'll see...
From that, it is obvious that I am single and the girl I was dating didn't last very long due to some differences and anxiety attacks on a daily basis. The relationship only lasted a week so I tend to think that it didn't happen/wasn't a true relationship.
I haven't cut in a long time but urges have come back strong recently and its driving me insane. What do I do? I've been clean for so long but I need it. I feel nothing can replace it; it cant be stopped either.
My other best friend has been getting too close to me lately and I hate it. It freaks me out every time and I really don't like it. Why does he do it? He better not be falling for me because I'm not gonna return the feelings. He needs to learn to back off.
Why does everything have to be complicated?
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Dark in Me
Non-FictionBook one in the 'Dark' series. **** This is a diary where I write all my thoughts and occurrences from September 2014 to January 2016. IT IS 100% TRUE! It's a huge trigger to anyone going through cutting and tough times. It's just my story for anyon...
