Hi ok so im officially deciding im gonna 10000% totally try to be more confident innn myself anddd how i look. (as well as i can whilst coping with dysphoria lol)
But i need to love myself abit more and stop saying bad things about myself cos its not healthy and not good for me.
basically yesterday i went all hypo on y'all andddd im thinking i wanna be that positive more ? lol.
also elliott (heyyyy !!!) made me say im beautiful earlier andd then made me blush and like i feel nice and soft and cute when im being happy andddd he sorta i guess made me think i could be abit more self confident ? cos it feels nice and idk just thankyou elliott !
alsooo me and alex (HEY BOYFRIEND ILYYYYYYY) were just talking... i said im fat. which i am. im not skinny anddd the doctor told me im overweight soooooooooooooo anyone who tells me otherwise to be nice is lying ok? ok. But i did try to be positive and say
well u no what i might be fat but that doesnt make me less pretty right? i can still be beuatiful! and i need to remind myself of that :)
Then i was looking at tops and said i think crop tops r cute but "i have a squishy tum tum so i would look silly" which is true but i think making it sound cute "squishy tum tum" is kinda good? makes me feel like its cute hehe. He said i should shush bc i can wear what i want and wouldn't look stupid.... but i mean with no breasts i aint even got anything for a crop top to like sit properly on so like it'd look silly... but if i did maybe it could turn cute and if i wore high waisted jeans i could look ok and it just be cute squishy tum tum and not huge blobby tummy...
ANWYAY I WANNA BE MORE SELF CONFIDENT
also imma try eating healthier andddddddd maybe exercise abit idk... just to feel abit better about myself? to say im trying. i wanna get my bike fixed tbh. i like riding my bike, its fun.
I would go swimming bc actually its fun but i get insecure and if dysphoria hits when swimming its never good lolssssssssssssssssss
ANYWAY YH IM GONNA TRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY AND BE MORE SELF POSITIVE!
idk how. i got a few ideas ? just small things anddd when i go to say something negative imma try stop myself and talk myself out of it or tell myself why its not true ? idk.
Anyway later gaysssssssssssssssssssssssssss xoxox
p.s. i need to stop being so active lol
