Shawn Mendes Imagines

Cheat

The smell of my home entered my nostrils as I walked into mine and Shawn's home, immediately making me feel relieved. I had came home early from work to spend some time with my fiancé before he had to leave for his tour in 3 weeks time.

"Shawn, I'm home!" I shouted, my voice echoing around the house. No answer. I shrugged, he must be in bed. I made my way up the stairs up, but suddenly coming to a halt in my tracks at the sound of groaning.

No, he wouldn't. I must be dreaming.

Gulping loudly, I reached out for our door, twisting the door handle to our shared master bedroom.

Swinging the door open, tears immediately brimmed my eyes at the sight I was seeing. It was Shawn and Lauren, his ex-girlfriend. In bed.

My heart shattered in a million pieces, the love of my life, sleeping with another woman.

"S-Shawn?" I cried. He stopped what he was doing, and slowly turned his head in my direction, realisation spreading across his face.

His eyes went wide with panic, as he glanced between me and the bitch in our bed.

"(Y-y/n). It's not what it looks like!" He jumped off Lauren, and searched for his boxers on the floor. He soon found them, and quickly covered himself before moving closer to me.

"I'm just gonna go now." Lauren whispered awkwardly, picking up her clothes and leaving. You better run, bitch.

"Baby, I-" he started but I cut him off.

"No- Just don't, Shawn." My voice cracked as I backed away from him. He took another step towards me, so I made a dash to the spare bedroom and locked the door behind me once I heard his footsteps hot in my trail.

"(Y/n)! please open the door," Shawn cried softly, continuing to band his palm against the door. I ignored him. I felt too numb to be listening to him and his worthless apologies.

Memories of me and Shawn flashed through my mind, how happy we were. If we were happy, why did he cheat on me?

Because I'm not good enough.

His sobs soon became inaudible, so I took this as a sign that he had left. Shakily opening the door, a red eyed Shawn was sobbing silently with his head in his hands and was leaning against the wall opposite the spare bedroom.

He must've heard the door open and he glanced up at me, immediately making eye contact. He stumbled up to his feet, not once looking away.

"Please let me explain, it meant nothing! I love you." He sobbed and grabbed my hands. I snatched them away and gave him a look of disgust. I didn't want his filthy hands on me.

"Well, if you loved me then why did you hurt me, Shawn. I trusted you! Your supposed to be my fiancé!" I cried, turning towards the door. I have had enough of his bullshit for one day.

"I still am your fiancé! I messed up. I'm sorry," he whimpered, trailing after me.

"Not anymore your not," I snapped, watching hurt swirl in his eyes.

"No," he whispered. "No, you don't mean that,"

"Am I not good enough, Shawn?" I sobbed, ignoring his previous words. His mouth was open, but nothing came out.

"Well, I'm sorry I wanted my first time to be special. I'm sorry I couldn't please you in the way you wanted me to." I scoffed, reaching for the door and opening it, only for it to be shut again by Shawn pinning me up against him and the door.

"Y-you can't leave me! I'm nothing without you. It was a mistake, I wasn't thinking, It won't happen again. I promise," he whispered, his hands on either side of my head.

My body struggled out of his grip and finally breaking free, pushing his body as far away from me as possible. I opened the door, but turned to his direction. 

"I'm sorry, but I need some time on my own. It's been an amazing 2 years of spending my life with you, but you've made it crystal clear that you have found someone else that can make you feel a way that I couldn't. I'll pick up my stuff some day next week. Goodbye Shawn." By now tears were streaming down my face. I didn't want to do this, I loved him, but he hurt me more than words can explain.

I took one last glance at his tear stained face and slammed the door, heading to my car. Leaving what I once called my world behind.

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