When involved with you
I instilled my trust
I mistook your I love you's
For what was really lust.
You knew what to say
You held me when I would cry
Who would have thought
That when things got hard, you would say goodbye.
I sit and wonder
If I knew then what I know now
Would I have left the show
Or allowed you to take a final bow.
To clap at the performance
That has taught me so much.
You made me realize that not everyone's good
Not everyone deserves trust.
Now I sit in the theater
Reminiscing about the play
And I realize I still love him
I am sad to say.
Love should be deserved
But the heart knows not the law
It feels not with hands
Or your falseness I could have saw.
I lift my hat to you
The grand master of shattered dreams.
My world is now ending
Or so it seems.
Wishing I could hate you
For everything you've done.
Wishing I could open up
But yet I run.
Afraid to open up
Fearful of fates blow
So until my fear vanishes
My true self will no longer show.
As you already know, Nichole already suffered from low self esteem and self doubt. During this relationship her ideas of self worth were regulated by what he told her not by what she thought. It was a toxic relationship from the beginning.
No one knows you better than you. Believe in yourself, your abilities and your worth. Know that you are in charge of your life. If YOU choose to share yourself and your life with someone it is your choice - no one else's. These are obviously my beliefs but these are words I have told my own children. If you like Nichole's poetry please remember to vote.
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Words a Mother Never Heard (Wattys2016)
PoetryA young woman who was always the life of the party, quick to tell a joke, always smiling and happy, tragically dies at age 23. What her mother found after her death reflected a much different young woman, her poetry. Her words showed a young woman c...
