Parallax (Suicidal Vigilante Deku)

Heart Beat

I was backing away even more the moment I saw Aizawa stand up and try to come close me. My breathing quickend as my mind started to race. I wanted to get out of there but there wasn't really an exit and so I hit the table an turned around jumping over it parkour style to get to the window and try to open then.

Like a scared animal. That was what I was just now. I was scared and I wanted to get out of there. I knew the consequences and I didn't liked them. In fact I wanted out. Out of there and out of my life. I wanted to a place called nowhere. It was a place beyound death and only death could bring me.

Doctor: Kiddo, calm down. 

Aizawa: Problem child. Focus on my voice and calm down.

Ratteling sound could be heard while I was trying to open the window but it didn'T budge at all and then I did something both of them didn't expected me to do. I used my elbow to shatter the window and then grabbed the window cill to get out and run. 

Just in the nick of time, before I was about to jump, I felt something wrapping around me. Did I ignore the feeling? Yes. Yes I did. I wanted out and that was all I could think off. This was also how I cut basically my arm by gleaning on shards as well as my ellobow which was hurt by the sudden shattering of the window.

Aizawa: It's alright kid.

I was scared.

There was no denying it anymore.

While I wanted to jump, I felt a tug and was thrown a bit backwards just to land in someones pair of arms. This soman forced me my ear to their chest so that I would hear their heart beat. It was fastened a bit. 

I felt the warm coming from this person. The guesture alone was something not often seen. Still hearing this heartbeat gets slower and slower till it returned to normal had a soothing effect on me.

All the while I could hear Eraserheads voice saying it was fine. He would be there. He would protect me. There was no need to be scared. I even felt someone petting and massaging my head. It felt good but I was too busy focusing on this heart beat that I could do anything.

Huh....

It was only once I started to move my head that this person, this hero let me some space. The cloths around my body were also not to strict and fastened around me. I could still move but they were enough to hinder me from jumping.

Doctor: I see you calmed down kid. 

Me: ...

Doctor: I'll dress up your wounds now. Just don't move.

Aizawa: Don't be scared problem child.

Huh...

How did I get in this situation?

How did I get in his lap?

Why was I listening to his heart beat?

....

Did I panic soo much?

What happened?

It was like a small crack in my memories. I knew but also didn't knew what happened. It was as if I saw myself in 3rd person party running or basically stumbeling to the window and doing all this. I felt embarrassing to know what just happened but it was one reaction that I had just knowing that whatever happens next would be a lot worse.

So all in all my reaction was considerably good.

The fear I had from an ophanage and knowing how a quirkless kid was treated was all I needed to go haywire. It was something I never wanted. It was also something I avoided the most. I knew what was awaiting me there was worse than death and so I would do anything and I mean anything to escape it.

Death was my option for these things.

I really didn't need more pain.

More Suffering.

More Torture.

More Anxiety.

I had enough. I really didn't need more of anything.

Aizawa: I will let you go now but you wil stay where you are. Got it problem child.

I nodded at him knowing that even if I would say anything it wouldn't be anything of any use. What would escape my mouth would be beggings as well as please for death as I would do whenever I would get tortured.

The hero did what he said and removed the scarf from me and in the next moment this doctor started treating my new wounds and then placed a hand on my chest after removing the shirt from me once again.

This time I didn't fight nor move at all. I was fairly exhausted from the mental break I had. All I wanted was to sleep and never to wake up again. It was that or the injection this doctor just gave me. He didn't care much and I could tell so but I could also tell that he was worried and didn't wanted to show it to anyone.

It was his way of dealing with shit like me. 

I knew what a bother I was. 

Now I also bothered this doctor and made a hero worry.

It was dumb of me and I knew it.

Why did I had to jump?

.... or more like try?

Why did I do this?

WHY?!

How could I be stupid.

I never should had let them see my back.

I never should have agreed to come here...

I....

I should have died the moment this villain attacked me.

There is really no need to go on.

Why did I survive?!

Why did this hero safe me?

Why me?!

Why.... me....

I felt very sluggish and started to lean against the hero while the doctor started to bandage up my wounds.

Aizawa: Probelm child?

Doctor: Don't worry. I gave him an tranquilizer, just in case he tries something again and gets more injured.

Aizawa: *sigh*

Is this why I feel this tired...

Aizawa: Don't worry problem child. I'll take care of you.

Me: Mh...

It was just a small sound but that was all I could do before my heavy eyeleads shut themselves and I lost the faught over my consciousness. There was nothing I could do anymore. I was just too tired and there was no use even fighting it at all.