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Pinagmasdan ni Leighton ang mahimbing na pagtulog ni Kay. He can’t get enough of Kay’s serene face. Dahan-dahan siyang kumilos at isinandal ang ulo ni Kay sa kanyang dibdib. Hindi naman nagising si Kay nang ginawa iyon ni Leighton.
Inilapit niya ang kanyang mga labi sa noo ni Kay. He planted a small kiss in there.
In less than a month… aalis na si Kay, Leighton mused to himself.
There he goes saying things almost close to ‘I can’t live without you’ shits without even giving consideration to the fact that Kay is not a citizen here, not even close to being a naturalized citizen.
Sa totoo lang ay gusto niyang mag-outrage kanina nang maramdaman niyang hindi nagbibiro si Kay sa mga sinasabi nito ngunit pinigil niya ang sarili. As much as he wanted to be in control of what comes and goes between the two of them, Leighton doesn’t want Kay to hate him.
Hindi niya isinasantabi ang mga bagay na gusto ni Kay na ma-accomplish niya gaya na lang ng pag-aaral. And for some reason, sometimes, Kay is urging him to go and visit his mom at least once a week.
May pakialam na sa kanya si Kay, not the usual just needing him for the sexual gratification.
So he lied…
Niyakap niya nang mahigpit si Kay.
Leighton lied about not being the problem. He lied about understanding the situation… and he doesn’t know how long will that lie be holding his selfishness.
May tiwala siya na kaya niyang hintayin si Kay. Ang wala siyang tiwala ay kay Kay mismo. There is a possibility na balikan nito ang dati nitong karelasyon. Who knows?
Kung ipapaagaw lang niya si Kay sa iba, ano pa ang sense ng mga pinanggagagawa niya para lang pansinin nito in the past few months?
There are too many fucking ways to make Kay stay by his side and the list inside Leighton’s head is already piling up.
Puwede niyang dalhin si Kay sa kung saang malayo para itago ito sa mga taga-embassy. Puwede rin namang ikadena na lang niya ito para hindi na talaga ito makalayo…
But those are acts of stupidity and desperation. Kay would surely hate him for that…
“E-Eight?” Narinig niya ang marahang sambit ni Kay sa kanyang pangalan. Nagising niya yata ito dahil sa sobrang higpit na ng pagkakayakap niya dito. “What’s the matter?”
“I don’t want you to leave me… don’t you think it’s too soon?”
Nagulumihanan si Kay. Bahagya siayng lumayo. “I thought you said it’s okay with you, so why—”
“I also don’t want you to hate me…” anas ni Leighton. “’Di ba kakasabi ko lang na huwag mo akong bigyan ng choices?”
“Eight, grow up. Choices are part of maturity,” kalmadong sabi ni Kay.
“Ayokong mahirapan. Ayokong magkamali—”
“Choices are made to be that way. I always believe I’m making the wrong ones too which eventually turn into problems.”
Sinimangutan siya ni Leighton. “Ano’ng gusto mo’ng palabasin, Kay?”
“Wala naman… ” sagot ni Kay. “Atleast we’re both good in Math. If we have this problem, then we find the solution.”
“I seriously don’t get the fucking humor, if there’s any…” natatawang komento ni Leighton.
Kay touched the corner of Leighton’s lips. “Oh? But I love how you’re smiling at me right now.”
