Help Me (Yoongi X Reader)

Chapter 15

Over the next several weeks, Yoongi became more comfortable around the humans at the clinic, especially Jin and Y/N. He would smile and have conversations with them. Yoongi even spent more time around the other hybrids, often joining them for video games. Jimin brought Jungkook back to visit several times and Yoongi was always happy to see his friend.

Although Y/N was happy with how much more comfortable Yoongi was, she could still see the fear in his eyes when certain things would happen. He would flinch when a door would slam or when someone's voice would raise, especially a human. Felix had stolen Jin's favorite stethoscope as a joke and ran from him, hiding under the bed in Carlos's room. Yoongi had been so terrified from Jin's threatening to get the mouse that he refused to leave his room.

Felix had to come in and explain to Yoongi that he knew Jin wasn't mad, but it took over an hour to calm down the nervous cat. He only calmed when he smelled Y/N's chocolate and peppermint scent. Jin had called her to come to the clinic to help and Y/N had rushed right over.

Y/N tried to explain to Yoongi that Felix was a prankster and loved to torment Jin, but the cat was still distraught. He really believed the mouse would get hurt since Jin jokingly threatened to beat him. Y/N watched him rub the end of his tail, an obvious sign of his nervousness and it broke her heart. She wanted so badly to go to him, but she knew he wasn't ready. She didn't miss the looks of longing Yoongi gave when Y/N would pet one of the other hybrids. She didn't miss the way he would reach up and touch his own ear as though seeking comfort.

Yoongi watched as Y/N sat on the edge of his bed. He wanted to trust the gentle girl. He wanted to feel safe around her and the kind doctor all the time, but the past kept coming back to haunt him. "Is Felix really safe?" he asked, his voice filled with worry.

Y/N nodded. "Yes my sweet kitty. I promise you. Jin would never do anything to hurt a hybrid. He became a hybrid doctor to help them, not hurt them. It wouldn't even cross his mind. Especially since he knows I would beat him," Y/N said, trying to reassure the nervous cat.

Yoongi nodded. "Okay," he said, still rubbing the end of his tail.

"Kitty," Y/N began, her voice gentle. "Can I ask why you don't trust humans?"

Yoongi looked up, his eyes filled with panic and Y/N laid a gentle hand on his shoulder. "It's okay," she reassured him. "You don't have to tell me if you don't want to."

Yoongi sighed. He wanted to tell Y/N what had happened to him, but the thought of it made him sick. With his last owners, he never felt so alone, so scared. He hated that feeling and never wanted to feel it again. "I'll tell you about my last owners. Can... can you hold my hand?" Yoongi asked, his voice soft but pleading.

Y/N's heart melted at his words. She moved a little closer and picked up his hand, intertwining her fingers with his. "Take as much time as you need my kitty. I'm right here for you," she said gently.

Yoongi hesitated then sighed. "At first, my owners weren't too bad. I was adopted when I was four. I had a large crate that they kept me in. It had a soft blanket that I like to curl up with. For the first 13 years or so, it wasn't too bad. They fed me everyday and gave me water. They had a daughter that was a year younger than me and a son that was a year older than me. If I was good and as long as my chores were done, I was allowed out of the crate to play with them."

Y/N squeezed his fingers at his words. She already hated his old owners simply for the fact that they kept him in a crate like an animal.

Yoongi gave her a sad smile then continued. "When I was 17, I was sitting outside with their daughter. She was 16 and had just broken up with her first boyfriend. I felt bad for her and when she hugged me, I didn't know what else to do, so I just comforted her. She pulled back and kissed me. It was the first time I had been kissed and I didn't know what to do, but I knew I shouldn't be kissing her. I pushed her away from me and she... she got angry," Yoongi said, his voice starting to stutter.

Y/N moved a little closer to Yoongi, picking up his other hand and holding them both. "It's okay kitty. You don't have to continue if you don't want to," she said.

Yoongi looked down at their hands. "No. You've been so nice to me," he said. "I'm... I'm okay telling you."

Y/N squeezed his hands again. "I'm here kitty," she said.

Yoongi looked up at her and gave her another sad smile. "After I pushed her away, I went into the house. I wanted to get away from her. I went into the kitchen and was putting the clean dishes away. The woman came into the house and grabbed my by one of my ears and pushed me onto the ground. She was yelling at me, asking why I took advantage of her daughter," Yoongi said, tears coming to his eyes.

~ Flashback ~

"How dare you put your filthy hands on my daughter?" the woman screamed, kicking the small grey cat.

Yoongi cried out, holding his stomach. "I... I didn't touch her," he said. "She was sad and hugged me. Then she kissed me. I...I pushed her away."

"Are you really calling my daughter a liar?" The woman demanded, grabbing the cat's ear and pulling him to his feet. She dragged him down the hallway towards the girl's room. The girl was sitting on her bed when the woman dragged the cat into the room.

"Tell me sweetie. Tell me what Yoongi did," the woman asked, her voice sweet.

"Mama it was terrible. I was crying about Joey and he... he forced himself on me. He kissed me and he touched... touched me," the girl cried, big fat tears coming to her eyes and rolling down her cheeks.

The woman turned to Yoongi and slapped him, leaving a red handprint across his cheek. Yoongi caught the girl's eye and she sent him a smug smile.

Yoongi's heart dropped. He knew right then and there why she lied. He was a hybrid but had rejected her affections. He thought she was his friend. He thought that he could trust her but he was wrong. So very wrong.

~ End of Flashback ~

Y/N's heart broke at the tears rolling down Yoongi's cheeks. She wanted so badly to gather him in her arms and hug him tightly, promising him that no one would ever hurt him again.

"Everything changed that day," Yoongi said. "No matter what I did, it was never good enough. For the next four years, I was tortured. If I didn't clean the kitchen fast enough after they ate their meals. If the towels weren't folded perfectly. If the grass wasn't cut exactly right. If there was a single weed in the flowerbeds. Nothing was ever done right."

Y/N could feel her own tears burning at the back of her eyes. This poor kitty had been through so much. So much that he didn't deserve.

Yoongi sighed. "When I was 21, I had enough. I ran away and never looked back. I've been on my own for the last 6 years. When I was found, I had just tried to buy something in a store. The owner didn't mind hybrids shopping there, but apparently someone forget to tell other humans that. There were four guys waiting for me when I left. Two of them held me down while the other two hit me. When I kicked one in the stomach, his friend stabbed me in the leg with a piece of metal fencing. That's how I ended up here," Yoongi said with a shrug. He looked up and noticed the tears rolling down Y/N's cheeks. "Why... why are you crying?"

Y/N released one of Yoongi's hands to wipe her tears away. "I'm crying for you my sweet kitty," she said, her voice filled with hurt and sorrow for the quiet cat. "I'm crying because my sweet kitty did not deserve the amount of hurt and pain he received. No one ever deserves that pain."

Yoongi was surprised. Her tears are for me. She's sad for me he realized.

Y/N squeezed his hands again. "I promise you kitty. I will do whatever it takes to make sure you never go through anything like that again. I swear it to you," she said, her voice filled with conviction.

Yoongi looked at the determination in the gentle girl's eyes and a part of him that shut down years ago began to open again.