Standing on the world outside. Caught up in a love landslide. Stuck still, color blind. Hoping for a black and white. Are you gonna be my lover? Are you gonna be mine? I feel it falling from the skies above. Are you gonna be mine? My wave, my shark, my demon in the dark, the blue tide pulling me under; or are you my soul, my heart, pull everything apart? Are you gonna, are you gonna be my love?
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My head spun with questions and emotions. Things I wanted to know and maybe should never know... I honestly didn't even know if I should trust myself anymore... I was either in love with the man or not... But as I stared at myself in the reflection; I knew that I had something for him...
"are you done in there yet?" Yoongi pestered behind the bathroom door as I readied my toothbrush. I simply replied with twisting on the doorknob and pushing the door open as I began to brush my teeth. Yoongi smirked as he looked me up and down in my 'wife' outfit and then stopped at the foam that leaked out the corners of my mouth. "hot~."
I chuckled lightly before spitting the bubbly substance that laced my mouth into the sink and repeated the course. "I know I am." I winked as I continued to brush my teeth.
"alright whatever you say." He said as he pushed against my hip to move out of his way. "I need to brush my teeth too dear~"
I quickly spat the remains of the toothpaste out of my mouth and laughed as I came back up wiping my mouth. "man you really like playing my husband huh?" I smiled as I crashed my body down on Yoongi's bed and stared up at the ceiling. There was a calming factor to counting ceiling tiles. I was enjoying the silence until I felt a crashing weight being pushed down on my body. "Yoongi!" I laughed/screamed as he pinned me down and crawled between my legs.
"I find it funny how easily you let someone do this to you." He teased as he pinned down my hands with one hand and sat on my legs. "if I really liked playing your husband (y/n) I would completely take advantage of the fact that I can do this-."
My mind fogged and my heart beat paced as Yoongi began lifting my shirt with his other hand and lowering his face down as well. "y-Yoongi what are you-." I struggled against his hold and was about to scream until I felt him blow into my stomach making me laugh uncontrollably. "oh- m-my g-god!" I laughed as I tried to push him off of me in any way that I could. "YOON-YOONGI!" I screamed through my laughter as his soft lips played against my skin as he made farting noises against me.
"what the actually fuck an I witnessing?" Namjoon said as he entered the room. My eyes immediately widened and I struggled even harder to get Yoongi off of me.
Yoongi laughed as he climbed off of me and rubbed the saliva off of his face. "sorry I was just playing with the toy you gave me." He said with his wide gummy smile.
Yoongi had no idea what happened last night and the thoughts that rushed through my head as I fixed myself. I cleared my throat to the awkward silence that filled the room. "What do you want?" I asked as I stepped around the bed to find my shoes. "don't we have a schedule today? Yoongi told me all about it-."
"I came here to tell you that we are switching partners." Namjoon yawned as he raked his large hand around his throat. "(y/n) you have to go meet Jimin in the coffee house across the street. You'll walk there with Yoongi and kiss him goodbye before you go meet 'your friend' for coffee." Namjoon said making my eyes widen. I was about to abject to the idea of Yoongi and I kissing but he quickly continued his plan. "Yoongi will then enter the black suv I will pull up in." Namjoon outstretched his hand and pointed at Yoongi. "Take your gun with you. The place we are going is laced with Johnathan's men."
"wait where are you guys going?" I asked as I stepped between the two exchanging weapons. "If you are going to my father's then I am coming to-."
"We are just going to underground Gun shop that is owned by your father." Namjoon said as he turned to look at me. "I will be sure to tell you if we change our minds and head over there. Okay?" he said almost sarcastically making me fill with anger. Namjoon glanced back at Yoongi as he shoved his pistol on his hip. "we leave in 10."
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I glanced at my reflection in the passing stores as I walked hand in hand with Yoongi. My black-short cut wig and high heels made me feel like someone I could never be, nor would want to be...
"this is nice isn't it?" Yoongi asked rhetorically grabbing my attention as we walked down the sidewalks. I watched as the soft winds tussled his soft grey hair.
I couldn't help but smile as I stared up at him. "what's so nice about it?" I questioned as I looked down at our hands. His large hand fit perfectly against mine; wrapping me in a soft warmth as we walked. I looked back up to see Yoongi wasn't going to respond to me. "are you saying you like to hold my hand~." I teased as I pushed myself against his arm.
Yoongi chuckled as he turned to look down at my hugging form. "We're here." He said making me look up at the coffee shop on the left of me and look behind to see Namjoon pulling into a side space to wait.
I instinctively licked my lips as I looked at Yoongi's. I didn't think I was going to be nervous to kiss Yoongi but as I stood here looking at the handsome man in front of me...I actually was.
"want me to make this quick?" Yoongi teased as he gently cupped the side of my cheek in his hand. I chuckled as I didn't want to agree nor disagree. "don't fall in love with me." He smirked before leaning down and pressing soft lips gently against mine.
My body tingled from the feeling of human sexual contact for the first time in a month. I softly stood on my tippy toes and pushed harder against his lips causing Yoongi to groan from the sudden eagerness. I quickly pull back and wink at him. "don't fall in love with me~" Before he could say anything or do anything else, I grabbed the handle of the coffee shop and entered.
My eyes widened as I pressed the cold palm of my hand against my beating chest. "whoa that looked fun." Jimin teased as he stepped up to me and hugged me. His lips kissed my ear as he spoke. "sorry about the hug, gotta make things authentic."
I pulled back from the hug and followed his to a nearby table. "don't apologize for hugging me Jimin." I laughed softly as I tried to calm my nerves. "We always hug." I smile as I watch Jimin slide over a steaming cup of coffee. "so now what?"
Jimin snickered as he brought his steaming cup up to his mouth. "now we talk."
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"when I thought you said 'talk' I never imagined this." I say as I softly rocked in my swing. After the coffee shop Jimin decided to take me away from 'business' and to relax. The only place he could afford was a free park which I didn't really mind.
"you love this." He replied with a wide smile as he bumped his swing against mine. I laughed as I rocked side to side before catching my feet again. "see have some fun (y/n)."
For once in my life I was actually considering this. The thought of relaxing and just doing something that made me happy and have fun was refreshing. Especially with everything that was going through my mind. The tattoos, my father, Taehyung losing his arm, Namjoon... and Yoongi's lips... I turned my head as I stared at the laughing Jimin. "you're right."
"wait so your dad never lets you play?" Jimin asked as he pushed against the soccer ball in his hand.
I sighed softly as my eyes scanned the large grassy field and the fun that was awaiting me. "Y-yeah." I frowned as I kicked at the rocks beneath my tiny feet.
"well we don't have to play ball..." Jimin said softly, making my eyes lock on his smiling ones. "we can always go inside and draw or something."
I chuckled lightly as I crawled my hand into Jimin's. "thank you."
"you always did find a way to make me have fun." I say softly as my memories of my childhood with Jimin flooded back. "So you stayed my friend even though you knew one day something like this would happen? Weren't you afraid I would hate you?" I asked as I stopped my swinging movements.
Jimin followed suit as he locked eyes with me. "actually no..." he said softly making my eyes widen. "I knew that you wouldn't hate me; mainly because I could never hate you."
I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion as I stared at Jimin. "wait what?" I said making Jimin chuckle softly.
"I'm basically saying I would do everything I could to make you like me again (y/n)..." My heart skipped a beat as I tried to picture everything Jimin could have done to win me back. The inside jokes, the memories brought to life... I would have crawled back to him, no matter how much I hated him...
My voice cracked as I spoke, "Then why did you stop talking to me when you rejected me that day?"
Jimin's eyes widened and I watched as a soft blush came to his cheeks. The wind blew against us softly as the screams of playfully children echoed around us. "t-that's because Namjoon had to come into the picture..."
"what's wrong (y/n)?" Ben asked as he stepped into my room.
I wiped against my cheeks as the salty tears fell from my and onto the desk beneath me. "N-nothing." I stuttered as I tried to catch my breath and forget Jimin.
"Was it a boy?" He chuckled as he placed a chair beside mine and rubbed my back. I sniffed and nodded my head as I slammed my hands against my face. "well he's missing out..." he said making my body freeze and my crying stop.
"What do you mean?" I asked as I turned to look at the handsome man in front of me.
Ben smiled as he removed his hand from my back and rubbed his stubble covered face. "I mean you're beautiful and a man shouldn't make a beautiful girl like you cry."
"I-I am?"
"the most beautiful girl I've ever seen."
I closed my eyes as I lowered my head. "oh." I say as I try to hold back the lump that grew in my throat.
"I would have said yes-." Jimin said making my head snap back up. I watched as Jimin rubbed the back of his neck awkwardly. "I m-mean at the time I would have." He said as his cheeks filled with color.
I smiled softly as I stared at the boy I use to love. The awkward smile and addictive laugh... Jimin really was the same Jimin I fell in love with... "that's good to know." I say softly as I stare at him with a wide smile.
"it is-."
"Helen! There you are!" My eyes widen as I watch a Yelling Yoongi come rushing up to me. "Something happened me need to go now." Yoongi whispered to both Jimin and I and we quickly agreed.
"Where's Namjoon?" I asked quickly as I watch Yoongi push himself in the driver's seat and no one was in the passenger. "Yoongi answer me." I panic as I slam the door behind me.
"he's been taken"