#EMILY
It was around 3am when my husband and I received a call from an unknown number telling us to rush to Nelson Mandela hospital.
Me: please let it not be Liam
Him: I'm sure Liam is fine wherever he is. Let's go
Me: I'll tell Sina to keep an eye on Ty
Him: I'll meet you in the car
I went to my daughter's room in panic. I knocked til she finally opened
Her: Geez mom its 3am
Me: baby I need you to watch your brother for us we need to rush to the hospital
Her: is it Sandiso?
Me: they didn't tell us who they just told us to rush there
Her: I'll try calling him to make sure he is ok
I was now in tears. Just the thought of losing my oldest son kills me. I would die, I know I have Ty but it just would not be the same without Liam in my life. We rushed to the hospital and headed straight to reception, we asked who what we were called for and they told us my son was in an accident and it was bad. They showed us to a room he was situated in. He looked f*cked up really bad, he had machines and pipes helping him breathe. He was sleeping peacefully. I was scared to death. The doctor handling him came to us.
Him: Mr and Mrs Langa
Me: how is he?
Him: he is going to pull through ma'am but we need to keep a close eye on him
Hubby: can you please have him transferred to St Mary's. We have a family doctor there
Him: we can try get it done but your son needs to be in a steady place
Hubby: Please just get it done
Him: as you wish.
While we were there waiting my phone rang and it was Sina
//Her: mom I can't reach him
She was crying
Me: he's going to be ok baby. We having him transferred to st Mary's
Her: what happened?
Me: he was involved in a car accident
Her: how bad is it mom
Me: I can't really say
Her: mom please just tell me
Me: it looks really bad but he will pull through baby
Her: you don't know that for sure mom
Me: I have to go the doc just got here.
Her: ma.... //
Dr: They can only be able to transfer him in the morning so all we can do now is wait
Hubby: for what? A miracle? my son was in a car accident and it looks really bad
Me: Honey come down
Him: no I cannot calm down. This man gets paid to make sure my son pulls through
Dr: I know that sir but we've done all we could up to this point and there's nothing more we can do. Sir do you know your son was driving under the influence?
Me: excuse me. What?
Him: the amount of alcohol found in his system is enough to get him arrested. And he is old enough to be in real prison
Me: no please he's dealing with some stuff
Him: the judge wouldn't care about that. Your son almost died tonight
Hubby: and what about the person he was involved in the accident with?
Him: The person is fine, he broke an arm and fractured a leg bone
Me: so it's safe to say that he ran into my son and not the other way round?
Him: well we can speculate and say yes but that's not my field. It's the police's job
Hubby: so there's nothing you can do? It has to go to the report that he was dui?
Him: I'm afraid so.
Me: ok thank you doc.
We went to the waiting room to wait til morning. I called Sina to update her on the news.
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#AMA
Sandiso call pissed me off to that point of crying out of anger. I cried to sleep. I was woken up by my annoying ringtone, I checked the time and it was just after 3am. It was Sinazo.
//Her: Mahle
Me: yes
Her: Sandiso was in a car accident
Me: huh?
Her: Sandiso wa...
Me: no I heard what you said. When? How? Where?
Her: I don't have all the details but tomorrow they having him transferred to St Mary's. I just thought you should know
Me: Sinazo how did all this happen?
Her: mom mentioned him drinking and driving from lord knows where and by the looks of things he could even get arrested for this
Me: uhhm ok thank you Sina. Where are you now?
Her: I'm home watching Ty. I'm worried sick
Me: this is all my fault
Her: what do you mean?
Me: He drunk called me blaming me for our break up and I just lost it
Her: it's not your fault babe, he is the one that got in his car drunk a..
Me: if I hadn't ignored his calls maybe he wasn't even going to drive in the first place
Her: baby listen. It's no use dwelling on the could have's and should have's all that matters is that he is going to be okay and that he's going to wake up
Me: I hope so
Her: he's going to be fine. I should tell Sbu
Me: ok bye then
Her: Bye//
I couldn't help but feel bad. I blamed myself for the accident, maybe if I had answered his calls or maybe if I had let him blame me for everything he wouldn't be fighting for his life. I spent the rest of the few hours praying for God to save him, he's my cousin yes but he was my boyfriend first and I loved him endlessly. I couldn't sleep, I was pacing up and down in my room and so I decided to call Dae. it was now after 4am. He answered when I was about to give up.
//Him: Mahle is everything ok?
Me: everything is a mess and there's nothing I can do. Damon I'm scared
Him: ok calm down. just breathe first
I did as told
Him: ok. What's wrong?
Me: Sandiso was in a car accident a few hours ago and if I hadn't argued with him he wouldn't be in a hospital bed fighting for his life. It's all my fault Damon
Him: How did you two even come to argue in the first place?
Me: Sandiso left home yesterday mad because he found out our mothers are sister's and then today, I mean last night he called me drunk as f*ck blaming me for our break up and then I just lost it and bit his head off and insulted him in the process and now he's in hospital because I refused to answer his calls after our phone call. Maybe if I had answer he wouldn't have even been in the car driving to see me. My life is just a mess
Him: wow this is really a mess. So when are you going to visit him?
Me: I'm heading there first thing in the morning
Him: ok that's good you two need to talk, but for now you need to get some rest ok. This is all too much for you to take in and process it all at once. We'll talk proper in the morning ok
Me: ok
Him: lets skype. How does that sound?
Me: I don't know
Him: it will cheer you up and you could do with some cheering up
Me: aren't you working in the morning?
Him: I am but you need me and so I'm here
Me: thanks
Him: thank me when you see my face
Me: Ok see you in a bit, let me set up
Him: ok sweetie//
I set my laptop up and prepared to skype with Dae. A few minutes later he called me and I answered.
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#Damon
//Me: hey Stubborn Beautiful
Her: I look like a mess
Me: a very beautiful one though
Her: you trippin'. What are you doing up this early?
Me: you called me idiot
Her: either than that dummy
Me: na.a Mahle we not about to do that.
Her: do what?
Me: that whole "Hud", "Wud", "Wuw" bull babe. Na.a
She was laughing at how I was saying alla that
Me: girl please. I'm not one of those crazy Facebook niggas that blow up your inbox every now and then
Her: what the hell. You being crazy right now.
Me: as long as you are laughing then I'm good
Her: thanks Dae
Me: no ways you don't get to call me that
Her: why not?
Me: you not like everybody out there on the streets so no
Her: but you call me Mahle
Me: cause I like the name
Her: and I like the name Dae
Me: fine I'll stick to calling you stubborn then
Her: ok jerk
Me: I miss you
Her: really?
Me: I wouldn't say it if it weren't true
Her: well I miss you too
Me: now that's hard to believe
Her: why's that?
Me: because you waited for me to say so before you could tell me
Her: oh come on don't be dramatic about this now
Me: I'm not hawu. But then again who am I kidding. You can't survive without me
Her: oh is it now
Me: look at you all blushy blushy over there. You home yet any chance you get alone you call me :) its cute really
Her: ok that's it. I'm never calling you again
Me: hahahaha argh please whatever, you know you 0 stop calling me. Even if you wanted to
Her: I can try thou
Me: and yet you haven't cut the call
Her: I'm not tryna be rude here
Me: you were rude the first time I met you. What's to change now
Her: and you were an asshole so I guess we even huh
Me: I guess we are then
Her: Damon
Me: yes
Her: I don't know if I want to ask this
Me: ask its ok
Her: Why are you like this towards me?
Me: how?
Her: I don't know. sweet. caring. kind and everything
Me: because I like you Mahle. Cause I want to be with you Baby
Her: ....
Me: I know you not ready for a relationship and I respect that. It's also why I just let you be because you need some space to finally heal and move on from him
Her: wow
Me: yep
Her: Damon I like you too. Maybe a little too much for someone who's just gotten out of a hurtful relationship and I want to be with you but I'm scared. The last time I took a leap of faith I ended with a broken heart and I want to do things right with you
Me: meaning?
Her: meaning I'm past that stage of playing hard to get. I know what I want and I know you know what you want so what I'm saying is let's make this work ok
Me: I never thought I would hear you say that soon. A month ago you hated my guts
Her: I didn't hate you. I was denying myself the feelings I had for you hoping they would go away but the harder I tried the more they became
Me: princess are you ok? like am I hearing you correctly?
Her: funny enough yes. yes, you are hearing me correctly
Me: ok I feel like I'm dreaming right now. so you and I are a thing? like officially?
Her: if that's what you want to call it then yes. We are a thing officially :)
Me: oh my god you just hit on me
Her: the hell?
Me: yes, you did. you just shela'd me. I feel so cool right now
Her: go screw yourself
Me: when I can screw you
Her: you so dirty
Me: get used to it
Her: I think I'm regretting this already
Me: lies. You not
Her: you crazy
Me: for you? yeah I am
Her: ok. I'm tired. Bye now
Me: bye who?
Her: bye boyfriend
Me: bye girlfriend. My girlfriend//