Monachopsis; The subtle but persistent feeling of being out of place.
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I regret staying up late last night because it's left me with a headache, something I don't enjoy.
This is the last day before Thanksgiving break starts and I couldn't be more grateful. I know River still has to go to practice some days but that's okay.
River also offered to pick me up today and I wasn't going to turn down a free ride, especially with how tired I am.
Knight: Here.
I throw my bag over my shoulder and make sure to grab my wallet on my way out of the door. My mom was working early again this morning so she could come home earlier to make dinner for us, which I thought was nice.
"Hey gorgeous." River says as I slide into the passenger seat and toss my bag into the back.
"Hey." I grin. "Guess what?"
"What?" He asks, reversing out of my driveway.
"Apparently my mom talked to your mom and they think it's a good idea for you guys to come over for Thanksgiving and then we can invite the others unless we all just want to do it by ourselves on a different day." I explain.
I wasn't surprised my mom thought it was a good idea since it's now just us two, but I was a little surprised when River's mom agreed to it.
Although I hope to a god I don't believe in that his father can't make it for some odd reason if we do all do it at my house.
"We can ask them today at lunch, but we'll most likely come over on Thanksgiving."
I nod and we continue the rest of the drive in silence while the music plays in the background or the occasional small talk.
Once we pull into the school parking lot, everyone else is already parked and waiting for us.
I don't understand how they get here so fucking early.
"You guys realize the bell is about to ring in like two minutes right?" Finn asks once we step out of the car.
"And that's more than enough time to make it to first period." I grin.
"You better walk fast than, girl." Beah says from beside Kat whos outfit is a-fucking-dorable.
"Kat, what the hell are you doing showing up here in an outfit looking that good." She averts her gaze from me and her cheeks tinge a light pink.
"Thank you." She mumbles.
"Better not let her go." I mumble to Finn as I walk past him with River following behind.
"Wouldn't dream of it, Reeves." Finn says, sending me a wink before turning to walk with Kat.
"We're that friendgroup." River speaks up as he holds the school door open for me.
I furrow my eyebrows, "What's that supposed to mean?"
"It means we're that one friendgroup where we're all dating each other."
"Oh well, we look hot doing it." I shrug as we head for the stairs.
The bell rings just as we make it to the third floor but the class is only down the hall so it's not like we're going to be super late.
"Knock knock." River starts as we walk down the almost empty hallway.
"Who's there?" I play along.
"Me."
"Me who?"
"Me who's going to take you out on another date." I look over and he has that stupid sexy smirk plastered on his face. It was smooth, I won't lie and say it wasn't, but I'm also not going to tell him it was either.
His ego is already high enough as it is.
"And if I say no?" I tease.
"Oh, c'mon, I didn't think our first date was that bad."
"Eh." I tilt my head.
His jaw drops open and he places his hand to his chest. "I'm kidding." I chuckle.
He shakes his head but a small smile plays on his lips as he opens the door to the classroom for me.
We head to the back of the class where our seats are and wait for the teacher to start talking.
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"Can Layla come too?" Finn asks from across from me.
"Yeah, I don't care." I shrug.
Aspen, Beah, and Kat are able to come because their parents didn't really mind if they were gone on Thanksgiving so I don't have to worry about that.
"Does Layla know I'm going to be there?" River asks Finn.
"Yes, why?"
"She called me weird." He frowns.
I snicker, "Are you really holding a grudge to a what, 5-6 year old?"
"Yes, little kids are mean, they need to be humbled and Finn doesn't do that." He turns to Finn, "You're supposed to bully her so she can get a taste of her own medicine."
"She's ruthless, anytime I try to bully her she turns it right back on me."
"How are you going to let your 5 year old sister bully you, man?" Aspen asks.
"Shut up." Finn grumbles.
"I'm team Layla on this, y'all can be weird." Beah speaks up.
"Says the one who tries to bite my arm." Kat shoots back with a smirk.
"Woah! Hey, that was supposed to be a me and you thing only." Beah says sarcastically.
I lean over to whisper into River's ear as I stare at the people in front of me, "They are definitely the weird ones."
He slightly nods, "I agree."
I rest my head on his shoulder and he rests his head on my head. Watching as they all mindlessly talk about with each other. I don't mind, I quite actually enjoy listening more than talking and it's nice especially when I have my own personal headrest.
"I was serious about taking you out on another date again." He says softly.
"I know, I didn't say no." I reply.
"I could cry."
"Why?"
"I don't know. I don't know how to explain it without sounding crazy. I just enjoy this feeling I have in me when I'm with you. It's like and overwhelming feeling but in a good way and one filled with excitment." He rambles.
I sigh, "I know what you mean." I whisper.
"You do?"
"Yeah, because I feel it too."
"I want to cry even more now."
"Please don't." I grab his hand that was on my thigh and bring it up to my lips, kissing the back of it.
"Can you guys stop being so cute, makes me want to throw up." Finn cuts in. I glance over his way to see his arm around Kat's shoulders and I glance to it, then back up to his face.
"You're one to talk."
"It doesn't count when I do it."
"Oh really?" I raise an eyebrow.
"Yeah." I grab a grape from my tray and throw it at his face, successfully hitting it.
"Ow." He says, rubbing his cheek while giving me a glare.
"Suck it up, buttercup." I smirk.
"I hate you." He mumbles while shaking his head.
"You love me."
"That's questionable."
"Ouch."
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River dropped me off after school before leaving and heading back to school for practice and my mom wasn't home yet but it was only 3:30ish and she said she wouldn't be home till around 5 so I wasn't worried.
I lock the door behind me and make my way up the stairs towards my room. It was somewhat cold today so I'm glad I left the heater on in my room because the heat felt really fucking good walking into my room.
I toss my bag to the side and kick my shoes off before heading straight towards my bed. I'm so tired today I couldn't be bothered to change my clothes before I take a nap.
I'm woken from my sleep of the smell of garlic bread and something else. Sitting up in my bed, I do my best to readjust my clothes and fix my hair before making my way downstairs.
"You were knocked out, I wasn't sure if I should wake you up yet or let you keep sleeping." My mom says as I walk into the kitchen.
I yawn and rub my face, "You could have woken me up, I would have helped." Granted I really hate fucking cooking, but it's mom and I hate saying no to her.
"No, it was fine. I got it all done."
"Okay." I mumble. "Oh, also Thanksgiving is a go, they all can come."
"Is there parents coming to or?" My mom asks as we both set the table.
"No, the only extra is Layla which is Finn's little sister."
"Okay," She nods. "I will need your help cooking that dinner though."
"Oh, I know, I'll make River help too."
"I don't know, heard he wasn't too good at making brownies." She says causing me to laugh.
I remember that day so well, we both didn't know what the fuck we were doing.
"Well then maybe we both shouldn't be in the kitchen, we might burn it down." I joke as we sit down to eat.
"Oh god, I can already see that happening." She says while shaking her head and grabbing a scoop of pasta.
"Thank you, mom."
"You're welcome, baby."
I don't deserve my mom either.
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a/n: sorry if there are spelling mistakes. i didn't feel like checking.
idk why but i'm having trouble getting these last chapters done (i don't know how many will be left)