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Third person's pov
"Noorie we are getting late. Be fast about it." Asmau yelled from downstairs.
"I am coming." She yelled back. The duo are starting their internship today and Noorie seems nervous. She doesn't know know how it is going to be.
The past three days haven't been easy for her. She has dark circles under her eyes due to lack of sleep. She has been having sleepless nights. Noorie is trying her best to cover the dark circles with makeup.
All she do is think of Affan and Mahmud. Mahmud gave her a choice. It is either she tells her grandparents that she don't want to marry him or she agree to the marriage. If she tell her grandparents that she is not interested in the getting married to Mahmud,She will get to be with Affan. Noorie desperately wants to tell them but she can't just bring herself to say it. Kaka and Goggo will be very sad about it.
How can she even say no to them? They have been nothing but supportive. They have been taking care of her ever since she was young. Something her own parents failed to do. If she say no to them,she will be nothing but an ingrate. But what about Affan? What about her feelings for him? Giving up her happiness for her grandparents own is a tough decision for her. Is it even worth it?
How sure is she that she will be happy with Mahmud if they get married? But She doesn't know if she will be happy with Affan either? This is so confusing.
Her instinct tells her that she should just agree to the marriage,but what of Affan? This whole thing is frustrating.
Affan is a really good person. She doesn't want to break his heart. Noorie wish she could do something about it.
Left to Noorie, she doesn't want to get married this soon. She just wants to focus on her housemanship and get a good job. We all have plans but Allah is the best of planners. She just wants to be free from all these problems. Noorie wants to make a decision before Kaka and Goggo return from their trip. They will be very busy if them come back because of Ya Fareed's wedding that is next month. She has to decide.
"What are you still doing?" Asmau asked furiously,interrupting her chain of thoughts.
"I am sorry. I will just finish up my make up and join you downstairs." Noorie apologists.
"Why are you crying?" Asmau asked.
"Am i?" Noorie asked,surprised
"You don't even know you were crying?" Asmau inquired,shaking her head.
Noorie kept mute and looked elsewhere.
"Please do not injure yourself with crying. You are getting slim. You haven't been eating well for the past three days. All you do is cry. This isn't fair Noorie. How do you think Goggo and Kaka will feel if they see you like this? They won't be happy atall." She sighed and continued. "Look we will talk about that later. Meet me downstairs and do no keep me waiting if not I will leave without you " She threatened and left the room.
Noorie is really jealous of Asmau right now. She is problem free. She doesn't understand what her cousin is going through.
Noorie rushed downstairs after completing her makeup. She doesn't want Asmau to leave her behind.
..........
"Call Noorie" Aneesah said,glaring at Mahmud.
"What do you want me to say to her?" Mahmud asked, glaring at her.
"You can ask her how she is? If she has eaten? If she is enjoying her day? If you can pick her up when she is done?" Aneesah replied,smilling.
"How does it even sound to you? I should ask about her day? If I can pick her up?" He said mimicking her voice.
"It looks somehow to you because you aren't a girl." She replied,glaring at him. She sighed and continued. "If you don't call her and ask her all these questions,she will feel unwanted." Aneesah said,trying to make him understand.
"I will call her. Pass me the phone." Mahmud said.
"Thank you twinny." She said happily.
"Assalamu'alaikum." Mahmud muttered after Noorie picked the call.
"Wa'alaikum sallam. Please who is this?"
"Uhm...it is Mahmud."
"Mahmud....."
"Yes Mahmud."
"Oh Mahmud. I am so sorry. I don't have your number.
"It is okay. How are you?"
"Alhamdulilah I am fine and you?"
"I am fine. How is your day going?"
"Alhamdulilah and yours?"
"Alhamdulilah. Can I pick you up when you are done?"
"Pick me up? Who told you I went out?"
"I was told you are starting your internship today. Aren't you?"
"Yes I am. Who told you?"
"Your grandmother told my mum about it."
"Okay."
"So can i pick you up?"
"Yeah. I will call you when I am done."
"Alright. Take care." He disconnect the call and let out a deep breath.
"What did she say?" Aneesah asked,excitedly.
"She will call me when she is done." He replied.
"Alright. Be there on time. Do not keep her waiting." Aneesah warned.
"Yes ma." Mahmud said, sarcastically.
Aneesah is Mahmud's twin sister. The duo are not married.
"You should go and disturb umma and baba." Aneesah said.
"And why should I do that?" Mahmud asked,confused.
"Tell them to finalise everything with Noorie's family. I want you to get married soon." She said smilling.
"So that they will think I am desperate?" He asked with a raised eyebrow.
"Aren't you?" She mumbled.
"What did you say?" He asked,glaring at her.
"I want you to get married soon." She replied.
"You are not getting any younger girl. Forget about me. Aren't you getting married?" He asked,looking at his twin sister.
"Let's not talk about this." She said looking elsewhere.
"We have to talk about it please. You are 32 years old for crying out loud."
"Well you are also 32years and unmarried." She snapped.
"I am not a female Aneesah. Mine is understandable. You are a female. Females get married early. Just because umma is not saying anything doesn't mean she is not sad about the fact that her 32year old daughter is still leaving in her house unmarried." He said loosing his temper.
"Well then maybe you can go and tell her to get me married the same way they are getting you married." She said and left my room angrily.
Aneesah was raped when she was just 14years old by our paternal uncle. Ever since then,she hated anything that has to do with men. She believes they are all the same excluding me and our father. She is always scared when she sees a male. She went through alot not to talk about the constant nightmares she kept having. She had insomnia at the tender age of 14. Thinking about it hurts Mahmud alot. He loves his twin sister so much. He was always there to comfort her. Thinking about what she went through brought tears to his eyes. He wish he can take away her pain.
Sighing out loud,Mahmud went out of his room to go and pacify his twin sister.
.........
"You deserve so much better than this. This isn't a reflection on you in anyway. I know it hurts so much but I know it won't be forever. Let yourself feel everything you want to feel. I can't stop you but time is the greatest healer. Remember I am always here for you whenever you need me." Alamin said,smilling sadly. The last time Alamin saw Affan like this was eight years ago. But this is much more worse than before.
He was sitting on the floor restlessly. He has dark circles under his eyes. He injured himself with a bottle. Everything on his dressing mirrors was on the flour carelessly. His room was in a big mess. He locked his room for three whole days and refused to opned the door for anyone. Using the spare key,Alamin entered inside the room. Affan was about to swallow a pill when Alamin came inside the room. He was in such a mess.
"Give me my drugs." Affan said harshly
"I am not giving you anything. I can't sit here and watch you destroy your life. You promised me you will stop taking these drugs. You promised everyone. How do you think your parents will feel when they find out you are still taking these drugs?" Alamin asked with glistening eyes.
"What do you want me to do? These drugs help me alot. They make me feel free. I get to sleep whenever I take them. They make me happy. I can't live without them." Affan said,crying.
"You can live without them Affan. You just have to keep trying. You can't continue living this way. What about the countless therapy sections? Are you going to throw them away just like that? What about Abba? How do you think he will feel? Please do not do this to yourself. These drugs will destroy you Affan. They will." Alamin said,wiping away his tears.
"You don't know how it feels. You don't how it feels to be in my shoes. You don't know what I am going through. Do you think it is easy? If it was that easy,I wouldn't have been taking those drugs. Why can't you just understand me? Those drugs set me free." Affan said,crying.
"I know it isn't easy. You just have to keep trying. If not because of your health,you should try because of your family Affan. They will be broken if they see you like this."
"I don't care if they see me like this" Affan said, harshly.
He is probably high. Alamin thought. "Stop doing this to yourself Affan. Please." Alamin beseeched.
"I can't help it" Affan said,crying.
"We are in this together. I will help you." Alamin assured and engulfed him in a tight hug. They kept crying on each others shoulder until Affan fell asleep.
Alamin arranged the whole room and dispose the drugs before leaving the house to the masjid to pray for his friends.
Poor Affan takes drugs.
Affan is really going through a lot😭😭
Aneesah was raped by her paternal uncle at the age of 14😭💔 May Allah protect us always.
Parents should take very good care of their children. Do not trust everyone with your kids.
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