I had this all figured out in my head
On what I was gonna write down in words to explain whatever is going on
But now,
every single word
Won't come back to me
Hard to write right now
Can't think of what I was going to put
Just thought it'd help with things
I guess
Stupid head won't stop pounding
Can't remember a good nights rest
With no meds
Or when the bags under my eyes weren't so dark that they'd be almost black/purplish
When I'd have enough energy to run circles around people for hours/the whole day
Stupid numbness
I've had it in me for over a year or two now
It's just increased the last eight months
Go away...
Just make all of it go away
I don't want to walk down the aisle to get my diploma in six months
Not without you
I don't want to go through what I went through to save them
My eyes feel so heavy right now
But I know
That I won't sleep
I'll most likely have nightmares
But,
I'm so sick of saying the same old
"Oh I'm used to it"
Yeah well,
me being used to it has basically destroyed my spirit
Maybe I should just give up and not do what I've wanted to do for over a year.
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A woman who overcame herself
PoetryThe story of I became to be after losing a sibling, a few toxic relationships, hearts getting broken. And how I'm finally being the person I've dreamed of being Enjoy
