A woman who overcame herself

*Sighs*

Not even sure why I'm writing right now
I don't think this is even safe or whatever
Everything is going to change in the next day or so
I wasn't sure if I saw your truck fly by that night
I wasn't sure of anything once I heard your engine
I hid in the shadows the best I could and hoped you didn't see me
And then I panicked the whole time in the car
Are you following us
Did you see me hiding?
I hope you didn't
I didn't wanna know anything at that point

Now I know I said everything is gonna change
I shouldn't even be saying anything
But will whoever believe me when I say I want out?
I doubt it
I doubt anyone will believe the person who continues to lie and lie
They're gonna probably hang me for this and many other things
Let alone I'll probably be jobless by later this week

Oh yeah, let's not forget my dog coughing up blood and showing signs of a tumor or cancer
So that's fucking fun
I go to the vet today in Duluth to have her get X-rays and lab work done
So if I lose her, I'll be a definite mess
Some people say I'm broken
That I'm still slitting my wrists
Or mainly a slut in their eyes
Leg spreading whore/child abuser is what a lot of people think of me now
And I lost the college I was going to
So now I need to pick another one
So yay this has been a crappy month
Ha, and counseling hasn't been the greatest either

Life isn't that grand
And I doubt it will be once I truly, fully leave