I was feeling very vulnerable and missed my ex
I had to read it over and over again; your message you know the one that broke me? Yeah, the night you sent it I almost collapsed onto the floor, I felt like I just had my heart ripped out and there was no dulling the pain. I started crying half-way through the message the first time I read it, and even though it hurt like hell I read it again, and again, and again until I was sure that the words were locked in my brain. I don't think I slept well that night but I mean can you blame me? I am writing this about 9ish months after you sent it and I am happy to report not one tear blurred my vision, but the pain was still there, still fresh despite my pleas for it to go away.
You didn't scare me, every boyfriend I had in the past scared me after a while but you; you were different, I was finally happy to wake up every morning just so I could hold your hand or see you smile in the hallway, and now it hurts to see your smile because I know I didn't give it to you.
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FacklitteraturI write things down when I don't want to forget what I was feeling at a certain time and place. I don't have to be happy or joyful to want to remember, sometimes I want to remember the pain, and the anger I've felt so I wrote it down I hope if you r...
