Random Self-Quarrells and arguments.

loser

I tell shawty to leave me alone
I spend too much time on my phone
I'd rather just be on my own
Where I dont gotta be watchin my tone
I'd rather just stay in my zone
I feel pointless enough as it is
On me the sun never shone
I was never meant for this biz
I'm tryna work on myself
Ain't messin with nobody else
I never thought of me as a whizz
Just reachin for a higher shelf
Never need nothin from nobody else

I wish that I could be different
I wish that I could be better
I wish that I could be innocent
I wish youd make my heart flutter
But the truth is I'm just a loser
And my love is lost in the gutter.

I'm floating farther away
Im riding a rolling wave
I dont care if things arent okay
I'd be fine if things went another way
My house could go up in flames
Anything to stop feeling ashamed
Anything to stop being blamed
Anything for my monster to be tamed
I'm sick of the way this game is played
Maybe it would help if I had prayed

I'd rather sit in disbelief than feel betrayed
I'd rather move far far away

I'd go on a whole crusade
Just to stop being played
Tired of watching my heart decay
I hold in my hand a grenade
I'll walk on the edge not afraid

I would have fallen on my own blade
I would have led a fancy parade

To get through any blockades
Now I'm living my life in the shade
Thinking of all the memories we coulda made
If you had only just stayed.