Random Self-Quarrells and arguments.

The L-Word

The L word is used so easily and quickly like its meaning is lesser now that it was, say... about 20 years ago. Its stupid because Ive grown to this "trend" as you could call it, which is a rather poor explanation but who really cares. Ill tell someone I love them after a month or so of being with them. Sure I do love that person, theyre great... but that doesnt mean I really love them. I just love the person that they are and love to have them around.  I know this is all really confusing but its extremely difficult to put into words. At the same time if I say it differently and in more of a formal setting, nervously or shakily or something thats a clue that I really mean it. Ive fallen for you and Im gonna get back up for a long long time. And whether you want to believe it or not youre unable to be with anyone else for a while after your relationship with that person ended, no matter how it did. I fell for someone a while back and when I say fell I mean tripped over my laces and kept falling through the layers of the earth till I hit the core. When you metaphorically "hit the core," theres no coming back. And I wish this person could see that Im not coming back up, not to blame them or anything but to show them how much I truly love them. Maybe Ill get a second chance afterwards if she ever realizes how dear she is to me. Or a 9th or 10th.... you know how it is. Well actually you dont know but Im okay with keeping it that way. Love is a dangerous thing, and a stronger word than Hate. It compels action and confidence to act against your will and throws all other emotion to the side no matter how important because Love is strong. I should know, Im in it with someone who doesnt back.

"Love will see it through."
~Anon