Random Self-Quarrells and arguments.

Well fuck this poetry shit cuz dis shits become a goddamn diary.

Nothing makes any sense lately...
I've been doing really well, you know.
I'm in love with the girl of my dreams and she feels the same way.
I just bought a sweet car... all the neat shit... you know spacious back seats and my ass can be hot while driving.
I have a couple great friends I'm hoping to never lose, and I've slowed down on smoking so much.
Some people at work are pretty cool,
And things have improved a little at home.
I'm not paying rent, I can have people over, and I have easy access to everything I need.
I'm applying to leave to Alberta and work in fighting forest fires... a once in a lifetime opportunity.
I should be the happiest person in the world.
And I am happy.
Just not as happy as I should be.
That's normal though... not being as happy.
But..
When I'm with her... that girl I mentioned earlier... my heart races, my mind doesn't blank and I fall into a trance.
We clicked.
We met and uh...
I fell immediately for her goofy ass.
From her pretty hazel eyes I could look into for hours, and her glowing smile that honestly makes my knees weak... all the way to her aspirations, goals, and interests... I would listen to her talk about camping, art, and 21 pilots for days on end. I would.
Not gonna lie I didn't even like 21 Pilots before I met her..
Every time she talks or giggles I go crazy of sorts. My head is having a party just listening to her adorable laugh.
Anyway, I gotta go and enjoy the moment. She's laying down next to me... and I could keep talking about how she makes me feel... But nah. I'll tell her myself.
When she reads this though...
I love you baby. 💚💜