kpop idol - me

chpt 48)fight aftermaths , rehearsals and girl group trainees

11th January 2020

i woke up to my alarm at 5:30. I have only had two hours of sleep.i called for an uber and once it arrived I got all my things and went downstairs. I left and saw the same worker from yesterday. I got into the car and once he got to the house he stopped. I left the car and thanked him.

one of my security guards was at the gate and opened it once he saw me. I thanked him and ran up the driveway to the house. I walked silently to my room and got changed into clothes for my rehearsals.it was around 6 now ...the others should be waking up soon.

I went into the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of coca cola before returning to my room and doing some work.

Jungkook pov

She had returned in the morning , I woke up early to see if she would come back and she did.i don't think she will do anything until she wins that grammy. I watched her sneak into the house and grab a drink before going back into her room.i slept with snow tonight and looked after her.

Once I saw diamond go back into her room , snow woke up and followed me around. I took her outside for a bit and then we came back inside. I went and fix myself up and then I headed to her room. I opened the door and snow ran to her.

Her face lit up instantly as soon as she saw snow. I watched as she played with snow and spoke to her softly.

I walked in behind her and she wouldn't even look at me. I sat next to her on her bed and just stared for a while

What was it that she said that worried yoona and David so much?

Eunha: you need something?

Me: oh , no no. just checking your okay.

She has lost who she was , is it just us growing up ? she is younger than me but it worries me how old she could be?no more spark in her eyes or the sense oh hope and love when she smiles.me and the members talk to each other about our feelings but she doesn't have anyone anymore.

I looked at her computer and saw she was emailing someone about stocks she was going to buy from pledis and the new girl group that she was making.

She looked fine , but her eye bags and bloated eye said two hours of sleep only.

I sighed

Eunha: are you okay? Do you need something? Are you hurt or something?

I held my arms out

Eunha: what ? is it your arms? Did you pull a muscle?

Me: no a hug please

eunha: why?

this girl 

me: i just need one , please

she gave me a hug and tried to move back but i didn't let her

me: you know. we dont see you as we see other girls. we genuinely see you as one of us . which is why we dont hesitate to fight with you , even physically , and it's why we give you hugs and we hang out with you so easily.even some of the other idols. like taemin sunbae or literally any other male idol of our generation.we look out for you and care for you because we know you , for you.

she froze in my arms , confused.i patted her head and let go of her before grabbing her arms.

me: but, some of these idols aren't who you think they are...even some of your current friends are genuinely trying to become something other than you friend. at one point that was us , but we were trying to become your brothers , not your close friends...but when taehyung hyung said that yesterday it was because he got into a fight with one of your friends because there were rumours , that were true , of them trying to get you to date them...he means well , he really does