kpop idol - me

chpt 41 )new years & friendship problems

when we arrived back home, i took my luggage to the closet and closed the door behind me.i went to the living room and saw massive packages on the sofa and tables. some were gift wrapped , others had brand names taped on it. fuck , i have to get through these.i opened some of them then i i got to the gifts. they meant a lot more to me as my friends had sent them to me. the txt members collectively came together and made me a painting , which i hung up immidiently in the living room.the its member had bought me a various things each. namjoon had bought me a miniature statue of me that was made from wood . jin had bought me a large collection of rj merchandise . hoseok had bought me ballerina shoes and outfits. yoongi had bought me a few jumpers from various brands.jimin had bought me a necklace and bracelet.jungkook had made me a drawing of me on stage .

 there was no gift from taehyung , so i just left it. 

i texted each of them with a picture of their gifts and me with it. i thanked them and wrote them a nice message about how i hope 2020 would be our best year.i also sent a message to taehyung hoping he had a great birthday and new year. he left me on read , what a fucking pussy.

i managed to get through the rest of the gifts. most of my friends write me nice cards or make things for me. they mostly argue that " i have everything", which i laugh at . i prefer getting heartfelt cards from them , rather than bullshit items which i know they got someone else to buy.

my favourite gift was from seolhyun , she bought me a blank notebook and colouring pens. she wrote a card with it that said " stop being fucking depressed and draw what you want. i know you are secretly drawing things on random pieces of paper.merry christmas hoe. I'm sorry for everything that has happened and i hope 2020 will be better. good luck on your exams. i have them next year so give me all your revision things!"

i spent the rest of the day cleaning the living room as there was paper and cardboard everywhere.once i was done , snow looked bored so i took her out for a walk.it was practically 6pm , it was really cold. i looked at the houses , all the lights were turned off. everyone was out . with their friends or family.bts were probably above la by now and nearly reaching new york.

31 december 2019

it is the last day of 2019.i woke up pretty late. everyone is at home , all staff members would be back in seoul.bts are performing and i have no one.once again. well apart from a new guard who is at the door and occasionally walking around the house.i got into jeans and a tshirt and got driven to my grandmothers house. i spent a few hours with her and seolhyun dropped by. i spent my new years evening with them. then seolhyun went back to hers and my grandmother said that she was too tired , so i took her up to her room with the help of her main and sang her to sleep.

i left her house after that and went home. i watched bts's performance of the new years event in nyc.

i think at around 9pm i got a call from namjoon , there it would have been 8 in the morning.

me: hello?

namjoon: hey , it's me.how are you?

me: im okay. just at home watching your performance and the reports and reviews

namjoon: how'd we do?

me: it was amazing , well done. how was post malone?

namjoon: he is such a nice person , i think he was a bit high this time though. less high that the last time we met him though. how is new years?

me: meh. i went to my gran mothers and i saw seolhyun.im back home now. my parents haven't called me though. i got a few messages from you parents though.