How many times am I gonna cry until my head is throbbing and I feel numb? How many times am I gonna pretend I'm okay?
I'm so tired of this. All of it.
I've never wanted to die more in my life, just to make it stop. I'm not suicidal, but I'm starting to wonder if I'd actually welcome death if it were to come.
It was getting better, but I always just dig my own grave a little bit deeper every time I get hopeful.
Like why can't I just stop hurting so much?? Its awful. My life is a living hell.
I'm crying so hard right Noe and I think I'm going to have another anxiety attack.
I just wish I didn't have to go to school tomorrow. Or ever again.
I can't. I can't do it anymore. I've tried everything. And I mean everything. Nothing helps.
I don't know what to do with my life anymore.
