Our Wildhearts (James McVey, The Vamps)

Last Night.

"You alright De?" Mil asks me as she walks towards me.

"Yeah!" I reply rather lay and she just looks at me before walking into my room.

I go into the lounge and sit next to Brad who smiles at me and wraps me in a blanket.

"You look cold." he says and I smile at him as if to say thanks. When he looks back at the tele I look over at James who looks hurt, emotionally.

When Connor comes out of the shower he goes in my room to change and Brad goes in the shower. However, while she thinks none of us will notice Mil sneaks into the bathroom with just her towel on.

Tilly and Tristan openly go into the bathroom together and yeah we tease them about it but let them go after a while. Connor comes out of my room and goes into the kitchen but on his way he looks at me and jerks his head to tell me to follow him. So I wait a few minutes before going into the kitchen.

"What's up?" I ask Connor who is sat on the counter.

"The ceiling but that's not what I wanted to talk about." Connor answers and I laugh a little. "Do you remember anything about last night?"

"Er I remember poker and truth or dare but other than that no...why?"

"You don't remember anything else?"

"No! Why, did I do something?" Connor rubs the back of his neck and looks at his feet. "Connor come on you can tell me! What the fuck did I do?"

"Ugh Delilah we kissed!" he blurts before dropping his head. "...We made-out."

"Connor..."

"But you know what the worst thing is I enjoyed it...fuck Delilah I enjoyed kissing you..."

"Connor it's...it's okay...nobody else knows and nobody else has to know! Anyways we were drunk and I don't even remember it."

"De that's not the point I don't care if people know...the fact is that I shouldn't have kissed you and then enjoyed it because James still loves you!"

"...James what?.."

"How haven't you noticed? De he is mad about you and I fucking betrayed the bros before hoes rule...not that you're a hoe!"

"You better not be! Anyway Connor just put it out of mind by the next time we meet we'll have forgotten all about it...I know we will." I say this and go into the lounge where everyone now is. Connor hangs back in the kitchen before joining us all with a plate of toast for everyone. At one point I look up at him and he's staring at me but he quickly looks away eating his toast.

The time finally arrives for them to leave so they all grab their suitcases from my room before we all head out to the train station in the boys' car. Upon arriving at the train station we all pile out and go into the main section of Manchester Picadilly station where all the train times are. The boys' train arrives in another fifteen minutes so we sit on the floor near their platform. When the platform opens the boys wait a few more minutes before we all stand up.

"Well guys it's been great to see you!" Tilly says tears threatening to fall from her eyes.

"Right back at ya'..." Brad says as cheerfully as he can as he looks down at the ground. Tilly hugs James, Mil hugs Tristan and I go to hug Con but when I hold my arms out he takes my hand instead. Connor pulls me to one side where the others can't see us.

"Connor what the..." I begin but am interrupted by his lips meeting mine. My brain tells me to pull away but I don't and just let it happen. Before Con said that he enjoyed it and he was annoyed at himself for it well, now I'm kind of enjoying this one... Connor pulls away and automatically looks as if he regrets doing it.

"I'm sorry...I had to know..." is all he says before he walks back to the others and smiles at Tilly who has just finished saying bye to Brad. Milly has also finished saying bye to Tris and is saying bye to James so I go back to the group, slightly dazed, and hold my arms out to Brad and Tris who both run at me and embrace me with both arms. They crush me a little but I'm okay when they finish.

"I'm going to miss ya' little one!" Tris says. He calls me little one because I'm the smallest of the girls but only by linke an inch.

"I'll miss you too Tris but not for too long; we'll see each other again before you know it!" I reassure him and he smiles at me before I turn to Brad. "Brad..."

"Shut up and hug me!" he says before pulling me into another tight hug. He releases me and turns round to Milly who he hugs and lifts off the ground. Tris is spinning Tilly around in an attempt to cheer her up because she hates being away from Tris for long periods of time. I see Connor dragging his suitcase onto the platform as I go over to James who looks slightly agitated.

"James?" I ask him wandering why he's looking all over the floor as if he's lost something.

"Hello...oh sorry." he answers.

"There's no need to apologise...you lost something?"

"Er no...It's nothing!" I look at James and he's avoiding eye-contact at all cost but I step closer to him and look a him closely.

"James..." cautiously I place my hand on his cheek and he closes his eyes remembering us before he looks me straight in the eye. "I'm not going to say it..." I say as I feel a lump for in my throat and the tears threaten to well up.

"Then don't." when he says this I let out a sigh to help hold the tears back. "I'm not going to say i either because this is the only way I know that we will meet again, and, Delilah, we will meet again!" At this point it doesn't matter how hard I try the tears are guarenteed and to hide them a little more I throw myself at James and hug him tightly while James rests his cheek on my head and hugs me back. I feel him take a deep breath to hold back his tears. While I'm hugging him I see Connor looking back at me on the platform before he turns away and walks further along the platform.

When I pull away I have to walk away because I can't look at him...he loves me and I haven't told him that I'm dating a guy I don't love in that way and I kissed Connor twice...I'm such a bitch. The worst thing is...I still love him...

I look back to where I just came from and see James staring at me tears in his eyes but he turns back and walks onto the platform with Tris and Brad to join Connor. What the fuck do I do now?
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Not again for fuck sake! De and Connor...what's happening there I wander? Hate to be the spoil sport but you'll have to keep reading to find out!

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