God, Mom I know I said I would work hard to be the person you want me to be,
But I can't.
I can hardly force myself to move nowadays,
Much less be the perfect daughter for you,
Or the perfect sister,
Or friend.
Or love.
I'm struggling so much just to remember to breathe in and out.
In and out.
They say to take life one day at a time.
I just keep letting everyone down,
And words can't explain how much that feeling gets to me
Because my one goal since forever has always been to give myself to anyone who needs me,
To be whatever they need.
To be strong.
To be the rock.
To save and protect,
And be the shield and the sword and the arrow all at once.
Much of what I do goes unnoticed.
I don't want credit.
I just want to feel like I'm enough,
To stop feeling like I'll never be worth much at all.
I guess I'm alone.
