I'm the Dancer's Girlfriend?! (Gimme Five)

22nd Delusion ♡ Sorry

Sa loob ng isang buwan ay ang dami agad nagbago. Pero sa lahat ng pagbabago isa lang ay hindi. Iyon ay ang pagmamahal ko kay Brace na wala pang isang linggo ay bumalik agad ako sa fandom. I assured my parents that I'm not gonna let Brace to be a source of my stress, instead I'll use him as my inspiration.

Napakadami ding nagbago sa amin ni Kurt. Hindi kami official pero alam naming may something kami sa isa't isa. Umamin na din siya sa akin na may gusto siya sa akin.

I know he smoke. I know he do gambling. I know he play dirty games. I know he flirt. But I got to trust him this time. I need to give him my trust.

Ayaw ng mga kaibigan ko sa kanya but I still fight for him. I still protect him from anyone.

I admit, I'm falling. Wala pang dalawang buwan, ganito na agad ka-intense ang naramdaman ko over him. He's so sweet and caring. He never failed to show me and make me feel that he loves me.

"I missed you." Aniya isang araw. Absent kasi siya 'nung nakaraang araw kaya hindi kami nagkita.

"I missed you, too." Piningot niya pa ako at inakbayan.

"I just want you here. Close to me." Aniya't lalo pa akong siniksik sa kanya.

Nakalipas na ang isa pang buwan at naramdaman ko ang napakalaking pagbabago ni Kurt. Hindi ko siya kasabay ngayong lunch because he told me he'll do something with his groupmates. Mayroon din naman akong gagawing projects with my groupmates that's why hindi muna kami nagsabay. My groupmates planned to take the photoshoot on the roofdeck dahil doon pinakatahimik at pinaka-peaceful.

"It's still you. I still love you." Malambing na sabi ng isang babae.

"I know." Tawa ng isang lalaki. "And, this time, I won't give up easily." Dagdag niya pa.

Nagsimulang manikip ang dibdib ko. The voice sounds familiar. Nagkatinginan ang mga ka-grupo ko.

"Hala! 'Wag na nga sa roofdeck, may naglalandian pa yata." Iling ng leader namin.

"No, let's see the place. Baka naman may area na walang tao." Ngiti ko sa kanila.

Umakyat kami sa roofdeck at nakita ko ang isang babaeng yakap yakap ang pamilyar na lalaki. Hindi na napigilan ng luha ko ang pagagos dahil likod pa lang, alam ko na kung sino iyon.

"Kurt." Bulong ko. My heart is so heavy and I don't know how to carry it.

"Sena!" Bigla siyang napatayo ng maayos at hinarap ako.

"Siya lang ba ang ka-group mo?" Nanginginig kong tanong.

"S-Sena..." Akmang lalapit siya sa akin pero sinampal ko siya.

"Tangina mo, don't even dare to touch me!" Sigaw ko sa kanya. Napansin kong napayuko ang babae. It's his ex!

"You're playing with me?" Sarkastiko kong tanong.

"S-Sena, sorry." Hindi ko na napigilang maluha ulit.

"Sorry? I trusted you. I protected you, from all of them..." Nanghihina kong sabi sa kanya. "Saan nagkulang, Kurt? Anong mali? Pwede mo namang sabihin kung mahal mo pa siya eh! Bakit kailangang madamay pa ako?"

"I guess it ends here." Nginitian ko siya't pinakitaan ng middle finger bago umalis.

Nanghihina akong naglakad pababa habang walang tigil na umaagos ang luha sa pisngi ko. Ang unfair na naman. Lagi na lang talaga akong dinadaya at pinaglalaruan ng tadhana.

Just because somebody flirts you, doesn't mean they like you. Just because somebody likes you, doesn't mean they want to hang-out with you. Just because they want to hang-out with you, doesn't mean they love you. Just because they love you, doesn't mean they won't hurt you.

Is this karma already? What I did to Dieter bounced back to me?

What's exactly my mistake? It's assuring him how much I trust him. People do that.

Once you showed them how much you trusted them, they'll play with you. They'll push you to your limits. Hinayaan ko lahat ng mga accusations sa kanya ng mga tao but all he did was to prove that those people are damn correct. He proved to me that he's damn worthless of my feelings.