Tonight I looked at the stars.
And I looked away.
I didn't want to see them tonight.
A familiar languish rested on me.
I love the stars.
I love the night.
I love the cold.
I love the ambience.
But tonight,
I couldn't stand it.
I've kept my mind busy with friends,
But this brought it all crashing down.
I can't write a song about how I feel,
Because every time I do,
It always comes out wrong.
It isn't the languish I wish to escape.
Writing,
Producing,
Hobbies,
Friends,
They aren't helping me.
I can't get my mind off of it all.
I may seem all fine,
But guilt trails me wherever I go.
I don't want to be here anymore.
I don't want to stay here.
I don't want to look back.
I don't want to think.
I'm fine.
They're fine.
It's fine.
Everything is fine now.
I hope.
