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under the covers 1

ship: alex x george

alex sighed, hating himself even more than usual. he laid there in his bed alone, in his empty flat, feeling empty and alone. his heart hurt and he wanted to cry so badly. mostly though, he wanted someone to be here.

no, not someone. he wanted his fucking boyfriend to be here. why does that feel like so much to ask? shouldn't boyfriends always be there? alex shouldn't be feeling like this, shouldn't be alone. he should be with his fucking boyfriend.

it hurt to think about. he didn't want to admit that he was right. instead alex wished james was cheating on him. at least then it'd hurt less.

alex turned to his side, looking at the picture of his supposed boyfriend. tears made their way down his face and he cried. he cried his heart out. alex's heart was breaking and he was so alone and no one was there. his fucking 'boyfriend' was nowhere to be found and he's the reason for alex's tears.

the tears slowly came to a stop, the only thing being heard was alex's small hiccups. this changed when alex's phone went off. he turned to the other side and grabbed it, sighing when it was george.

"mate i won't be back for a while, don't lock the door, i left my keys." george said, sounding happy. something alex was lent feeling.

alex replies with a yes and they hung up. he frowned, wishing he had said something. no way that he would, alex didn't want to bother his flat mate.

laying there, alex thought of his flatmate. he and george have been bestmates. alex loved it, that's why he said nothing about his crush on george. soon enough he started dating james, and know he's here. here, wishing he had never dated james, wishing he had told george how he felt. it made him feel horrible. but james wasn't innocent either. lately, james hasn't been making time for alex. always had an excuse to not hang out, and never texted him. it was cheating, it was loss of interest.

he was desperate to find a reason to stay in this shitty relationship. a rough patch was the best he could come up with. deep down he knew. he knew no one should be waiting and waiting to hear from their significant other. alex shouldn't wait up all night waiting for a 'gn' from his boyfriend. he didn't want to say it out loud. at all.

alex looked at his phone, debating whether or not this was a good idea. he decided that he shouldn't be doing this to himself. alex picked up the phone and texted james.

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hey

hey

i gotta say something

okay?

i think we should break up

really? why?

james i just feel so alone. you make me cry, because you're never there. where are you all the time?

i'm... honestly nowhere. i guess i have been doing that. i'm sorry, i just don't know how to do this. dating isn't something i'm good at. i can try?

no, i'm sorry. i love you, but i can't keep waiting for you to find interest in talking to me. i gotta go.

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the tears came flooding back as alex threw his phone at his wall, hearing a crash. his hands shook as he grabbed his cover and covered himself, wanting to escape the world. wanting to just sleep forever.