I never thought I'd make it here
convinced myself there was no point
no reason to plan for more
and now I'm left
drifting with nothing but my impossible dream
my stupid childhood belief
unable to grow up and be someone bigger
I'm away from home more and more
it gets harder walking out the door
I know I'm not ready
I don't think I can go
but I have to start my life
I have to go with you
but leaving's getting harder
I'm outside of my head
unable to tame the thoughts
the fear of an end
the fear of a change
not wanting new beginnings
I never dreamed I'd get here
I didn't realize how true it was
but here I am
and now what?
and now where?
what happens tomorrow
I'll never know for sure
it's scarier than always knowing
what's around the corner
I'm not done with this part of life
I'm not ready to move on
I never was
I never planned to
I have nowhere to go now
I have to fend for myself
the world is too big
I'm not prepared, but why
why wasn't I prepared?
who was supposed to prepare me?
I don't know how I got here
I don't know where to go
I want to be a little girl again
I want to curl up in bed
I want to go back in time
even to stop existing would be a relief
I need consistency
I need a plan
but I'm left open and empty
I can't comprehend this
my brain is exploding
I'm not done being young
I'm not ready to grow up
I'm not ready to leave my home
I'm not ready
I''m not
I'm
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Poems of Death
Poetry***TRIGGER WARNING*** Feel close to death? Maybe you're not quite as close as you think. These are poems I wrote for me and people I love; some were gifts and others are just my thoughts. These are my own words and images. Although this is for mysel...
