In my mind
I'm going crazy
and I don't know who to trust
if you'd be the one leaving
as I always knew you would
I wouldn't blame you for the ending
not even for the promise
I knew you couldn't keep
because you never knew
it'd be too much for you.
if she was the one hurting
why is my heart breaking
why is my head screaming
while I sit inside my skull
in caged denial of the truth
I couldn't blame her if I tried
because I only blame the guilty.
if I'm the one who's crazy
am I wrong to trust
is my judgment at it's best
could I let you stay so near me
should I listen to what I'm thinking
I think I'm going crazy
but maybe that's just crazy
but I don't think I'm trustworthy
in my fragile state of mind.
and if she cries I wouldn't judge her
and if you leave I wouldn't blame you
and if I tried I wouldn't love me
not after the pain
not after the hurt
not even if my mind stopped screaming
not even if it made her better
not even if it made you stay
I'm the one who must be going
if I can I'll stop her caring
so maybe soon you won't be hurting
when the monsters take over my thoughts
my sleepless mind
always fighting them off
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Poems of Death
Poetry***TRIGGER WARNING*** Feel close to death? Maybe you're not quite as close as you think. These are poems I wrote for me and people I love; some were gifts and others are just my thoughts. These are my own words and images. Although this is for mysel...
