Hi, my name is Caitlyn Shaffer. This is my journal. Inside it contains all of the emotions I've been experiencing lately. Some are good, some are bad. Yeah, mostly bad. Anyway, this is my story.
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I can't tell you how many times people have left me looking stupid when I was down as fuck for them. And I'm not just talking about relationships. I told people my biggest secrets, thinking they were my friends, Only to find out they've been running their mouths behind my back. I feel like I can't tell anyone anything anymore, Because if they aren't with me, My secrets are no longer safe. There's a reason why if my boyfriend isn't around, I'm by myself. It's not because I'm shy. Its not because I hate people. It's that I don't want to let anyone in ever again. I don't want to make friends. I don't want to start again. I'd rather be alone than being surrounded by people that either hate me or are fake as fuck with me. It hurts. Because I thought that I was important. I thought I was special. Turns out I'm just as average as anyone else. So why should I deserve something as special as friendship?
