Hi, my name is Caitlyn Shaffer. This is my journal. Inside it contains all of the emotions I've been experiencing lately. Some are good, some are bad. Yeah, mostly bad. Anyway, this is my story.
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Part of me might still love you. A very small part of me wishes things were different. That it was me instead of her. But I know that isn't what i truly want. She's shown me your true colors, and what it's like to be with you. Sure the attentions nice, but eventually it'll get annoying and I'll just leave you anyway. So thanks for not saying yes. But I still think that I want you sometimes. I think about you at night, while trying not to. I think about how far we've come, and how easy it is to just walk up to you and say something now. When I talk to you in person, I think about how dumb i was to actually find you attractive all that time ago. You kind of look like a fish. You're not as handsome as I thought you were. But you make it work. You're fugly, but I suppose you're a different type of fugly. At night, I also miss you, without trying to miss you. Your face brightens up my day a little. It reminds me of how happy I am that we can be friends, when not too long ago, we couldn't stop fighting. Thank you for showing me the real you, and not the you you've been hiding from me.
