Hi, my name is Caitlyn Shaffer. This is my journal. Inside it contains all of the emotions I've been experiencing lately. Some are good, some are bad. Yeah, mostly bad. Anyway, this is my story.
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Everyday, if I'm not dreaming about you, I'm thinking about you. You're not mine, but yet you still inhabit my thoughts every single day. I dont know what I want from you. Not a relationship, I know that much. Possibly something more intimate? I dont know, but for right now, friends is all I need. We've only known each other for a few months, and they've been the most life changing months of my life. Everyday, I find out a little more about myself because of you, and how little dependant on you I am anymore. You taught me that it's okay to be alone. That I don't really need anybody. I'm happy being alone now. I know that no one can match my intelligence and my deepest desires, so why should I date? Why should I waste my time on some eighteen fourth grade reading level boy? Just because that's all I can get? No. I refuse. I refuse to settle for less than I deserve, and after everything I've been through, I deserve the whole world. So this is why I am alone, and I am content with it. I'm just waiting for someone with a higher IQ than five to come to my rescue. And you have taught me that I shouldn't settle for someone like you. I should be exploring the world and expanding my mind and broadening my horizons. Not settling for some emotionally fucked up sixteen year old. To this day, I still tell the stories of our relationship. And still, to this day, You are my favorite story to tell.
