Hi, my name is Caitlyn Shaffer. This is my journal. Inside it contains all of the emotions I've been experiencing lately. Some are good, some are bad. Yeah, mostly bad. Anyway, this is my story.
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For a really long time, my emotions got the better of me. People could control me by using my emotions. And as time went on, I started to gain more control over my thoughts and feelings. I stopped depending on relationships for happiness. I started looking for what I want. Not who I want. I wanted to go further in my music. I wanted to excel in choir. I wanted to just live in my own music. So I buried myself in it. And I began to feel happier over time. I stpopped worrying about the guy who disappeared, and started worrying about me and my future. I ended up getting the solo in the most popular song in the May concert. It was the happiest time of my life. All eyes on me. Just me, in the spotlight. That's all I ever wanted. And that's when I realized, I dont need a man to be happy. Being here, right now, up on this stage, this is where my true happiness comes from. Not the way some boy makes me feel. Performing was the only thing that ever made me feel real. And I never saw it that way Because boys kept making me feel invisible. Now everyone knows my name, and I couldn't feel more real.
