Devote [book 1]

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Day by day, my life went on. My usual routine was in set and it took off. I was successful once again, with my own business. I didn't have many close friends, not after that promise I made to myself. I always made sure that I didn't get too close. Making sure that I didn't let something accidentally slip.

The guy I used to call my father hasn't contacted me...yet. I knew he was conjuring up some big plan to ambush me. But I wouldn't let it happen.

Ryan and I weren't too close anymore, I told him about my promise. Although he was against it, he respected my wishes. I was going to contact him again once I knew it was safe.

As for Lucas, I haven't talked to him. Nor do I plan to. I knew that if I even saw him or got a glimpse of him, I would break down. The juicy gossip going around is that he's back after leaving for a year or so, and that he's back to his flings. It hurt me, to be honest, but it's my fault.

I was, and am, a scared person. I tend to run away from my problems and push away the closest people I have to being even close to a family and best friends. It isn't something I'm proud of, but it's the least I could do before they get involved with me.

Cristiano, he's a pesky bug. Always trying to pry some information off of me, or making me guilty. He's always somehow finding me and telling me how his brother is miserable, again. I know it's my fault, but he doesn't need to know the real reason. Not now. And I know that he's being like this from personal experience.

Around me, the world continues in fast motion while I feel like I'm that one person going in slow motion, or even at times getting stuck. It isn't what I want, I shouldn't be looking over my shoulder 24/7 because I'm scared. That's not fair, but when is it ever?

Not only am I scared, but I'm also twitchy. Whenever someone gets close to me or surprises me, I flinch.

After all the memories came back, my childhood ones were the last ones. They seem fresh in my mind even if it was at least a decade or less ago. I shouldn't be scared. I shouldn't flinch. I shouldn't get anxious whenever someone has their hand up.

Very short chapter! It's needed though. This is the end of part 1 of this book.

I, myself, am mad at Imogen. Her relationship with Lucas is such a rollercoaster that sometimes I want to slap her for being dumb.

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