When I say I use my heart to think
It sounds cold, calculating
After all, emotions that are written in ink
Are never as potent as those held within
But is it a sin?
Well we'll see, let's begin.It's not that I don't like my feelings in my chest
It's more that I need to confirm their address
What comes from my heart and what comes from my head?
Do I care, or is it just logic instead?How does one define feeling?
It leaves a mind reeling
It isn't a choice
And it gives you a voiceMy thoughts are the same
They just enter the frame
With no kind of forewarning
Raging and stormingThey hurt far more than emotion does
Cause more damage, draw more blood
I'm a philosopher, one that loves math
Logic and dreaming tear me in halfWhile the love that I bear
Is a choice, not a burden
Not like when I'm thinking
Slowly sinking
Into a primordial soup of conflicting opinionAnd so I conclude, that contrary to others
It's the thought that smothers
While emotion is easy
A refuge, safe place to beLove is a choice for me
Not a knee jerk reaction
So I've decided emotion comes from my head
Something I could have fled
Thinking that love ain't deadAs thoughts build up inside my heart
Logic conflicting with nonsensical art
Pinned down to my chest with poison darts
Slowly shredding my lungs apartThinking hurts, and it's not about logic
And it's my heart that aches, longs for an off-switch
While my brain is fond of thinking of feelings
And intimate dealingsBut honestly, I can't say if it's wrong or right
I'm too close to my head and heart to let either take flight
I might be messed up, but my brain is still light
And my heart is satisfied I that can still writeIt's a reverse on the inside,
But is it bad? You decide.***
Does anyone else relate to this?
I come on here and I read all this stuff about how difficult it is to love people and be in relationships, but I don't see any reflection of that in my personal life. For me it really is the thoughts that are difficult to come to terms with.
Religion, infinity, Zeno's paradoxes, the universe, chaos theory, atomic structure, the nature of electrons, morals, jobs, university, spelling.
HOW IS LOVE SEEN AS MORE COMPLEX THAN THOSE THINGS? It's so easy!
Anyway.
Obviously some people see it differently.
As always, please leave a poem in the comments or recommend an anthology.
Alex xxx
BINABASA MO ANG
Under My Sofa
PoetryWhen I was little I wrote in the space under my sofa. Now I write on top of it. That's not poetic. I'm just too big to fit underneath anymore.