Bound to darkness

Going down...fast

~Arabella pov~
The maid finally walked in , I shifted nervously . My mind was racing with millions of thoughts all swirling around making my head spin. Why did Darius ask me to dinner  ? Do people usually get dressed up for a casual dinner? How am I going to survive this?
I sighed and put my hands to my face .
Then slowly regaining myself , I realized something , all I had to do was have dinner and leave . Nothing more , nothing less. The maid handed me a  dark red dress . Honestly I couldn't tell you how stunned I was at it's beauty. It's not like anything I'd ever worn before. I went into the bathroom and changed into it. I looked for the first time in a while at the mirror . It was a familiar stranger I was staring at . She looked like me but something seemed missing . I let out a breath and really looked at myself , seeing a tired face and searching eyes . Had I always looked like this? Always been like this? Who was I? I felt like  a girl with no memory,  playing a character so she  could have some sense of identity. It didn't seem like me . Didn't seem right. What is this? How could I have not realized it? It finally hit me , I never asked how I got here , or why I was still here , who I was before , who i am...
The maid knocked interrupting my thoughts . I opened the door slowly and the maid stepped in and started laying out what she called "makeup ." I was confused as to why I needed it but after seeing how I looked after I realized why , I was actually decent looking after  . I thanked the maid and walked out of the room closing the door behind me . I gathered my strength and walked to the dining hall. I was going to survive this , I was going to find myself no matter what. And for the first time in a while I felt like I knew a part of me . I finally reached the door and opened it  , finding Darius sitting there quietly . He looked up at me as soon as I walked in and smiled . I smiled back and sat down across from him . "You made it" Darius said excited
"Of course I did" I said calmly
"I was shocked when you agreed " he said
"Seemed like it , the expression you made was of utter shock" I said
We chatted away after that  , I was sort of enjoying myself . After we ate , we walked into the garden for some fresh air . It was calm  and peaceful . The moon and stars were gorgeous , I couldn't help  tilting my head up and staring at the vast sky. Suddenly I felt something grab my hand. I looked at Darius , who was staring at me in a way that is never seen before . I found myself staring back from both shock and wonder. Then the strangest thing happened...he kissed me.

~~~~~~meanwhile at Damen's~~~~~
~Damen pov ~
I've been so drunk and depressed. I can't believe this happend. Right when I fell in love it was wrenched away from me. I finished the bottle of booze and then threw it against the wall. Maybe it does seem immature but I was going insane at this point. She could be anywhere. Stupid! Stupid! Stupid!  My mind shouted . This is insane ... I'm insane . My friend mason walked in with a troubled look on his face . I gave him an annoyed look and said "what?"
He looked at me and said "I hate to tell you this man , but you have to marry someone... The  attack took a lot of resources and we need allies . Look man , I know you love her but she could be anywhere and who knows what they've done to her" 
I glared at him . "No" I said slowly
"Look there's going to be a ball tomorrow and your going to have to find someone , if you can't do it for you then do it for the kingdom ." He said and left without another word.
I would go , but only to see if anyone has seen Arabella . My chest felt heavy and so I sunk into bed and soon I was asleep.

There is no distraction to mask what is real...

A/N:
I  am so sorry for being so inactive! I'll be doing continuous updates on the story from now on . I've gotten a few comments on the story about grammar and spelling and I just wanted to say I'm sorry about it , I will be correcting everything after the end of the book but for now I will be doing a little bit of editing for grammar and punctuation. Excuse any spelling or mistakes they will all be corrected after the story is finished . I also wanted to say I love you guys so much for reading and I'm sorry about being inactive and the spelling and grammar it will all be fixed soon so please don't stop reading because of it . Also I love reading all of your comments you guys are so wonderful 💕 I appreciate all the feedback and ideas ❤️ don't be afraid to point out any errors or ideas you'd like me to do 😊 we have reached 16.2K!!!!!!!! You guys are so awesome I love you!!!!❤️