Where we belong

Chapter 20

Jessica's POV
The last few days have been crazy.
All the free time we have, we spend between choosing paint colors and furniture and bathroom appliances and between the house and the kids and slowly starting to pack, I feel like I don't see Sara anymore. I do because we are always together but talk about house stuff and kid's stuff and not "us" stuff. And before at least we would have us time when the kids went to bed and we would coddle in bed but now we are so tired that we say goodnight, trade a quick kiss and that's it.
Arg!!!! I miss her.

"What do you think?" I ask her as I put a paper with the bathroom plant on her lap.
"About..." Sara asks.
Sarah peeks over to the plant and smiles.
"The bathtub.. I had it changed.." I tell her.
"I just want one who covers my knees and boobs at the same time"
"Knees and boobs at the same time" I mock her. "Fine! I'll just pick the one I want!" I say and Sara looks up and smiles at me.
"It's like dating a guy!" I joke looking at Sarah and Sarah quickly turns her smile to a frown.
I frown as well and look at Sara and see she's gathering her stuff.
"What?" I ask oblivious.
Sara just laughs and gets up.
I grab her arm.
"What?" I ask her and look at Sarah for guidance.
"You just compared her to a guy Jess.." Sarah says sadly.
Sara rips her arm from my hands so hard that it hurt and walks away.
"Sara!" I scream.
"As I'm a men you can't take care of the kids tonight. I'm going clubbing. Don't wait up." She screams not looking back.
I sit down in her chair and pull my legs up and wrap my arms around my legs as I put my face in my knees and bawl.
"Sh... It's ok.." Sarah comforts me.
"I just keep messing up"
"I know you didn't mean it in that way.." She says.
"I just meant it as in the picking little details for the house way..." I bawl.
"I know.. I know! Let's go out with her tonight! You'll make up, you'll see!"
"I miss her so much!"
"I know sweetie, you'll make up!"
"How do you know where she's going?" I ask her.
"She going where she always did, the "Bijou bar""
"Is that the one downtown?" I ask her.
"Yeah!"
"What am I going to do with the kids?"
"I'll call my babysitter, I'll invite Camila and we'll go!"
I look up at her.
"Pick you up at 8?" She asks.
"Yeah! Leave the kids and the baby sitter at my house?"
"Yeah!"
"Ok!" Sarah says standing up.
"See you at eight!" I say gathering my stuff.
"See you at eight!" She says.