Kylo Ren/Ben Solo imagines

Personal Imagine Kelsey

"Kelsey" a sharp gasp filled the air. I felt the breath knocked from my chest when I saw his face. He stood with a pained face at the door. It was so silent you could hear the drip of blood falling on the ground.

I didn't know what to say, so I didn't say anything. He shook his head and turned back into the hallway

I quickly came back to reality and jumped off the chair. "Ren! Please wait!" when I got to the hallway he was gone, I had no idea where to look and I was getting a little woozy. My arm was dripping blood everywhere, so I took off my dark grey cardigan and wrapped it around my arm

My head was spinning but I didn't stop running, I needed to find him; I needed to explain everything I have held back from him, which was most of my feelings, well my darker feelings at least

I don't know why I couldn't tell him how I felt, he was already a dark man, I mean he was a Knight of Ren, does that not already sound dark? But I felt like my thoughts wouldn't make him feel any better because he is a sad man on his own, a loving girlfriend should be the one who tried to bring light into his life

I looked around the whole ship until I was at the end of it where his room was, he liked to be secluded from everyone, even me from time to time.

"Ren?" I called out into the dark room. I didn't hear a thing but I knew for a fact he was in here.

I was going to turn on the light until he called out for me. "Kelsey, I sent medical to your room, you should be there" his voice sounded hoarse.

I walked over to him slowly and careful not to walk into anything. Suddenly the lights turned on and he stood tall infront of me. his eyes were blood shot and cheeks were damp. My heart broke looking at his hurt face

"I am sorry" I cried sitting down on the metal chair

"I am hurting you, not physically, but I am hurting you aren't i?"

I shook my head vigorously "no! no, this isn't your fault, none of this is your fault" I cupped his cheeks as he searched my eyes. "I have been sad for a long time, longer than I have known you. I cant help it and this helps me sometimes, I never wanted you to find out"

"let me take away the pain, of everything. We can leave Kels, we can get out of here" I bit my lip and shook my head. "I don't know what to do and its killing me!"

"you have duties here Ren, and I fully understand that. I will stand by your side forever and always. As long as you are with me I will be the happiest"

"I vow with my life, I will make you the happiest, because I know you aren't. I will keep you safe, even when you need saving from yourself."

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i hope you like it Kelsey!

and just so you know, if any of you are feeling down or anything i am here for you all. even if you need a late night rant, or a second opinion just know if you feel like there is no one that i am at least here. :)

i dont want any of you guys to feel as if there is no one there for you because i have first hand felt how that feels and its not a good feeling.

im just putting that out there.

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tay xoxoxoxoxo