Kylo Ren/Ben Solo imagines

Imagine #21

"Hey it's okay my love" I said taking my fingers through his hair. His breathing was out of control and I could tell that it was hard for him to breathe. "Ren please calm down"

He had just done what could have possibly broken his soul forever. Ren was already a broken man but after this I knew he would never be the same, and I wasn't stupid enough to believe I could fix him, but I knew I could ease some of it if he would just let me in

He burst through my door about an hour ago freaking out, I've never seen him freak out other than his tantrums, this was different but I was here for him, I would pick up the pieces even though I never thought I'd have too.

He picked up his head from my shoulder and stared into my eyes, but his were teary though not one year has fallen. Ren is trying so hard to be strong but what he has done- no one could jump back from that

But I spoke too soon, a tear slipped but before I could fully catch it his lips were on mine. "Ease the pain, (y/n), please" he pleaded.

I touched his soft cheek with the tips of my fingers and watched as his eyes closed. His lips felt so soft against my own and if these were different circumstances I would feel overjoyed. I have loved Ren since I came here. My dad was a radar technician and brought me with him

But I didn't feel as excited as I would normally be.

We grew closer as time past and I only grew more feelings for him, but he never tried anything and neither have I, until this moment.

As much as I'd rather this happen in a different way, I would not let him feel the pain he felt, I would try and help him, because I love him.

His hands traveled up my shirt and rested on my stomach "your body is so warm" he said softly before kissing me again. I felt myself exploding in excitement

I removed his clothes and straddled his waist. "I've wanted to do this for so long" I whispered

He half smiled for a second "you should have a long time ago then"

He took off my shirt and laid on top of me "better late than never" I said as I felt his cold body on mine "I love you, and I will help you get through this"

"I know"